A Bundle of Lavender: Poetry Collection

The Tune of Falling in Love

The Tune of Falling in Love 

original poem by m.rain all rights reserved 

We sit in the lobby
Like ducks
Waiting for bread to
Poison our stomachs
Into bleeding out
Or throwing up
The access fuel
That nauseated our time together
WasIt always ticking.
In the back of my head like a
Watch always said
This will never work
So I️ removed it's batteries and
Loved you as hard
As I️ could.

You are the only thing
I️ have ever been sure of
But now you slip
Through my fingers like sand in a rake

all the magnets in the lobby stick together
But pull apart so
Easily,
How do you tell if
Something is meant to be?
I️ roll a worry stone in my palm
But it's so smooth
Not at all like your hand,
Troubled from paint brushes and lighters
And time,
I've always loved the story your
Hands told me

And the absence of them
On the small of my back
Feels a lot like
A black hole.
Behind a closed door
Our secrets aren't

I️ am getting sick of taking the same fucking medicine all the time

The only drug I️ ever needed
Was a person
But quitting never happens gradually
One day you're running 60mph, max dosage

they kiss your forehead
Say just friends
And leave you shaking
From withdrawals
For months
Searching for crumbs of it
In dirty bathroom floors
And at the bottom of bottles
I️ choke on my own spit
When we say goodbye
Without kissing
Once again I️ have lost more skin and
More pieces of my own puzzle
Than I️ can makeup for
So when you try to slide back
Under the blankets
We don't fit right anymore
My skin Protected from intruders, entry
Mission impossible.
I️ think of kissing you
In the waiting room
And in class
And forever
But remember the last time
Was the last time
And you're not coming back,

Something about writing this is nostalgic

Like I've wrote it a thousand times

Like maybe we will meet again

I️ imagine

Wrapping arms

Around you as we fall

Asleep in my bed beneath brick wall

And globe lights

Humming softly in the tune of

Being in love. 

nov. 2017