[Without you] /Lippa/

Thoughts and Disappointments

As soon as Lin left the building, where Pippa lived, his thoughts began to spin around what just happened. He kissed Phillipa Soo. It wasn't like he never kissed her before since he's kissing her 8 times a week, but this time it was different. This time it felt like there were actual feelings involved, but he probably just interpreted something into it, which wasn't true. Or was it? Maybe Pippa felt the same electricity which Lin felt through his body, as they kissed. He just could guess about what she felt so he drove home with Sebastian, without saying any word.

Meanwhile Pippa was in her apartment and slowly walked towards the couch and sat down again. She also had to process what had happened before Sebastian came back to the living room. To this day she thought, she knew how it would feel like to truly kiss a person she loved but apparently she didn't until today.

But did she really love Lin? No. That's not possible, they've been friends now for quite some time and they already kissed more than most couples would kiss in their first months. Hell she actually kissed Lin eight times a week and lived with that the absolute dream of Groffsauce. After sitting on the couch for 10 minutes, Pippa grabbed her phone next to her and started to text Renée. If there's someone she always could ask for advice or help it was Renée.

Hey Renée, do you have
some time? I need your help.

Of course! What's up?

So I talked to Lin and we
somehow ended up kissing...

YOU WHAT?!
Yes I told you, you should
talk to him but I didn't mean
you should make things
worse and kiss him.
What were you thinking?

I was thinking nothing!

Truly you didn't think
this through, kinda stupid.

It just happened and now
I don't know at what point
our relationship is...

But don't you guys kiss like
several times a week?

Yes, but this time it's been
different. It felt different and I
know I've got Steven and he got Vanessa. But it was a feeling
I've never felt in my life. But I
don't know if he felt the same way.

You just should talk to Lin about
it this afternoon and see how
it goes. Stop being a child
and just talk. Also I need to go.
Alexis is setting the
kitchen on fire...

Bye, see ya later.

And with that Pippa put her phone down again, closed her eyes and exhaled deep. Renée was right. She should set all records straight this afternoon and talk to Lin before the rehearsals. Even though she still didn't know what exactly she should say to him. Should she just go to him straight and tell him: "I might have feelings for you, so please break up with that controlling, crazy human you're calling your wife." Pippa couldn't do that for sure, since the kindness she had wouldn't allow this. She had to do it slowly and not overwhelm him. Maybe she should ask him out for a dinner and tell him? Oh wait. Vanessa wouldn't allow this... it was complicated.

The afternoon came very quickly and Phillipa made herself on the way to the theatre. As she arrived she was at first greeted by Leslie. "Hey Pippa, nice seeing you again. You're doing well?" He asked as the nice person we was. "Hey Leslie, yeah thanks for asking. I'm doing good. Do you know where Lin is?" Pippa asked then, since she didn't want to search for Lin in the whole theatre. "He's in his dressing room," Pippa already wanted to go but she was held back by Leslie. "Vanessa's with him, so if I were you, I wouldn't disturb them." Phillipa only nodded at Leslie's explanation and went to her dressing room instead.