patient or past?

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you-ashton
you called out his name as he glanced up you opened your office door ushering him inside

you-go grab a paper and pen atticus, notes could help you remember
you nodded to him following ashton into your room

ashton-i didn't think you'd want to talk to me i-

you-i want you to shut up and sit down. this guy is new and has been on edge all day so his gonna sit in the room and learn how to do what i do. all i want from you is a normal session yeah?

he nodded sitting down

ashton-yeah i can do that
he smiled getting comfortable in the seat as atticus sat at the back

you-alright so i want you to tell me about your past relationships

he went on explaining his past 3 relationships which got very deep very quickly

ashton-and that's about it

you-sex life?
you asked glancing up to him

this was very awkward but needed to be talked about.

it's a pity it's the only conversation i could think of right now, especially considering where we are at.

ashton cleared his throat

ashton-regular once or twice a week, im getting on well with a woman at the moment
he said being careful with his words due to atticus being in the room.

you-good and how would you feel if that woman hurt you? physically that is

ashton-shocked and scared. i wouldn't expect such violence from her considering what she knows of my past

you finished up the convosation on his love life moving along to his physical appearance

you-your a very attractive man but you have scars from ur past on your chest. i wanted to ask if those trigger anything for you, maybe flashbacks or a bad feeling?

ashton-sometimes. it's a bit stupid really becuase of how long ago they happened but when im looking at myself i wish they'd go away because of all the bad memories they bring me

you-it's not stupid at all
you smiled lightly enjoying the conversation between you two.

it flowed well and was calm.

you anything nightmares about the past?

ashton-alot yes, it's why i cant sleep sometimes and obviously my um physically pains

you-anything else you'd like to talk about for the remanding 20 minutes?
you asked him now done with your questions on the topics you wanted to talk about

ashton-you
he whispered gazing at your outift

you glanced over to atticus as he smiled getting out his chair

atticus-thank you y/n

you watched him leave and close the door behind him as you fell back into your seat taking a deep breathe

you-jesus christ of all people i had to act as normal and calm as i could around you?

ashton-hey can we not? i made a mistake on being late and missing a phone call because i was showering. and now ur all over rowan like we haven't just fucked many times and planned out a beautiful little future?

he sat up in his seat sliding to the edge of his chair to touch you clearly hurt

ashton-im literally obsessed with you. i know we've brushed through things and you barely know anything about me and the same goes for yourself but i cant just throw us away. you are literally my only purpose of keeping it together.

you glanced down seeing your bracelet still on his wrist

ashton-ive wore it every minute of every day. it reminds me of you and you are literally my safe place. i need you

you-i can help you but i can't do the whole relationship ashton. i just can't.

i want too. i do. his the defnetion of a perfect man but rowan's just came back into my life and im not ready to kick him aside for ashton

ashton-thats fine, that's enough for me
he smiled

you-i could just do some physio before we finish up?

he smiled happily taking his shirt off

you pulled a fresh peice of blue roll onto the chair for him as he sat on it and you taught him a couple exercises to do to strength his arms and reduce pain

after that you began to massage your hands into his chest

ashton-your doing that thing again
he groaned grabbing your arms

ashton-one side hurts more becuase ur on my left

you climbed onto his lap watching his eyes widened and lips curve into a smile..

you continue to rub your hands into his shoulders and his eyes remained on you

you-hurting?

ashton-yes its hurting
he muttered glancing down to your hands taking deep breathes

ashton-it's better than before

ashton-our sex might have helped

you glanced up to his eyes in shock as he chuckled

ashton-you grabbed my shoulders alot and when you hugged me your hands always pressed against my back or chest

you-i helped without even knowing?
you asked now focusing on one side at a time

ashton-being around you helps me
he panted turning against your arm

ashton-stop stop
he whispered as you slid your hands down to rest inbetween your legs on his abs

he took deep breathes staring at you

ashton-i get ur mad but no need to take it out on my shoulders, it hurts alot

you chuckled at his sarcastic tone

you-ive forgave you that's how i normally do it

ashton-are you kidding? its so painful

you-who else you been fucking?

ashton-what
he said confused

you-your little respectful essays weren't just about me, who else

ashton-just you

you-dont fucking lie to me
you sighed leaning down to his face fixing his messy hair so you could look into his eyes to see if he was lying or not

ashton-you want me to put a body camera on myself? i said, just you
he replied in the same tone you did

you smirked gazing down at is lips watching him chuckle

ashton-go on

you-what
you asked biting your lower lip

he slipped his hands onto your face pulling you down

you pressed your hands off his chest stopping him

you-i cant
you whispered gazing into those eyes

ashton-just one
he smiled meeting ur lips in a kiss.

a soft tension filled kiss.

why do i do this to myself.

sorry if there are any spelling mistakes