Embracing the Heartless Lies (Isla Lavinia Series 2)

Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18

Fall out love

‘Celebrating the 25th birthday of Cornelius Easton Lavarias and his engagement with Sorshana Cassidy Gamboa’

Nanlamig ako sa aking nabasa. Mabuti at katabi ko lamang ang lagayan ng regalo at nanghihinang nailagay ko doon ang akin bago ko pa malaglag. Seems like all my blood rushed down as my sanity flew away. Naramdaman ko ang pagbuhos ng aking luha kasabay ng malakas na pintig ng puso ko... Unti-unti, tila naninikip na ito...

Despite the loud conversation and the laughters of people in the party, the unwanted thoughts in my head are more loud... screaming and stabbing me like it was that supposed to be.

Parang umugat ang paa ko sa lupa at natulala sa screen. At some point, I still wanted to beg that this is not true! This will never be true because he loves me! He said he loves me!

But maybe, at my life, I am done being understanding. I'm tired of keeping myself shut without hearing their side. I'm done choosing them before me... Because in this point, I felt how unwanted I am... How helpless I am...

Parang umiikot ang paningin ko. I need to take my sanity back and hold tight because I felt like I might faint.

Galing sa aking kinatatayuan ay kita ko si Easton at si Cassidy. His hands are all around her, like proud man to his girl... But those image shattered me fully... It woke me up from sleeping of pain and fear that if I lost him, I lost myself... Seems like I lost him already since before.

Sa nanginginig kong paa at tuhod ay pinilit kong maglakad patungo sa kaniya. I was in full wrath and killing pain, walking to them. They didn't noticed me. They are in their full smile talking to some visitors.

I clenched my fist as my heart beats painfully. I just stopped from walking when I saw his sister looking at me in shock and anger. Mabilis akong napatigil nang agad at madiin itong naglakad patungo sa akin. Cayomee Lavarias is looking at me in her wildest wrath and rage.

“You bitch! Your audacity to be here!” galit na duro niya sa akin.

My heart beated in painfully manner. I stopped midstep and looked around when I saw we gained attention but no one tried to interfere.

“Ang kapal ng mukha mong pumarito, ha! Wanna ruin this too?! Ano, ugali niyo ba 'yan!” galit na ani niya. “Looks like your parents never taught you a good manners! Or wait— how could they taught you a good manners, if they can't teach itself!”

She laughed insultingly. “Pathetic family!”

Nagsalubong ang aking kilay. I totally felt helpless amd hopeless. Hindi ko alam kung may isasakit pa ba ang puso ko. Sa kabila ng hindi ko buong pamilya, gusto kong magbuhat ng kamay dahil sa tinuran niya sa aking pamilya! My parents never failed to teach to be good!

Hindi man kami buo ngayon, pinili man kami iwan ni Papa, unti-unti mang bumitaw si Mama, I am still holding on our promises and happy moments that I'll never let someone insults us like this!

“H-how dare you! You don't have the rights to say that to my family!” nanginginig kong sabi.

“At ikaw pa ang nagsabi niyan?! How thick skin you are, huh?!” she fired back.

I controlled my anger. I don't even know why she's mad at me. My hearts shattering in its biggest cracks. Hindi ko na makita ang taong sadya ko rito dahil sa nakapaligid sa aming tao. Yet no one tried to interfere.

People are murmuring about us. Looking at me in pity. Like coming here is digging my own grave... Indeed. I may be really digging my own grave. I'm shattered and broken. No one know how pained I am. I am done. I am tired. I am helpless. And once again, I have no one...