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❛ was it love at first sight? ❜
i erupt with laughter all the time.
it was far from love at first sight
i remember that day so vividly, walking down the aisle with a frown on my face,
the sound of drums and guitars
women singing praises
other's weeping.
i remember how we moved to our seats and i caught sight of you on the first day,
watching how you and your friend scurried by the seats to the back giggling like little school boys.
the first thing came into mind was how annoying you looked,
as well as how you two, especially you were so disrespectful to the environmental aura
"no better than the other youths of our age"
thinking you were so "cool."
i never liked you at first,
i wouldn't have been surprised if the rest knew me as the angry one
considering how much i frowned around you.
i believe you were the first boy i had ever disliked for no apparent reason,
you always attempted to communicate,
i always shared few words,
at times i chose to ignore your very existence,
walking past you as though you were not there,
but when approached or spoken to
i always gave my attention
i wasn't completely rude.
it's funny to think how over time,
the more time we spent together,
the more fond of you i became,
sometimes glancing back before i drove away,
just for a final look.
it's funny to think that my dislike for you gradually became adoration,
being away from you become almost tortuous,
i went from wanting to get away to wanting to hide away with you,
at the back yard where we would play soccer,
where you constantly tried to challenge me and i proved you wrong,
golden days.
adoration soon became love.
you weren't as bad as i thought,
what i thought was worthless skills, you look upon me like a goddess
as though i had turned salt into water.
i shall never forget the wonder in your eyes.
your eyes,
i adore them.
the way your lips parted and you laughed moments after,
the way you were theatrical,
the way you thought of me as some mad genius when i saw someone ordinary.
you were a lesson of self love,
during and then after.
your laughter that i once thought to be annoying (for how cocky you appeared to be) soon became something i was fond of,
your goofiness itched my smiles,
i often longed to see the glint in your eyes,
you were contagious,
i felt vulnerable to you
and only you.
had no one ever caused my soul to move in such pleasant rhythm before you,
had no one ever filled me with energy like you,
you were almost like a sickness,
consuming my mind and body without even laying a hand on me.
i desired to hear you laugh,
i craved your presence in silence too,
to stand by your side would be fulfilling,
to share no words but simple eye contact was how deep my love ran,
i came to find comfort in the simplest of things with you.
the things that i thought to once dislike soon became things i wanted more of.
so no, it was not love at first sight,
but it was a sight that i first loved.
oh,
what a punishment you became.
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