𝗔𝘀𝗵 𝘅 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

im glad you're here p4

Ash looked at you with concern
It took you a while to respond
As if you wanted to say 'scuse me but you said what now ? But stood still processing what just happened

You looked at him for a while

"Well um ,..."

"I think i .... Will"you answered in a tone of excitement

"O-oh ! really ! I'm so happy  t-thank you y/n..i -" Ash said

He was so happy with you accepting his request  you smiled as ash kept rumbling on his words

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The two got everything They needed for the day ready to leave .
You walked along with ash as he was holding your hand,out of curiosity you wanted to ask ash where you'd go ,But he said its a surprise Till you  get there

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After a while when you got there you were amazed how beautiful the place was

After choosing a place to sit  on with  ash ,The two sat together,as ash rested  his head on your lap letting out a sigh

"Y/n.." he  started

"Can i speak with about  something...?"   Ash said With a tone that seemed both low and sad

"What is it ash ? "You questioned

"Well ya see i ..., well uh ..." He started nervously  for a reason you could tell that he's shaking.

"Ash ... Its okay you can tell me just take a deep breath,and relax. "  you said trying to calm him down

It didn't take long for him to calm down as he took deep breaths 
As you waited for his response

"...."

" Y/n  I , I'm just ... not so happy with myself ..." He started

"I -... every time i get  angry  i can't control it  , i don't know anymore
Its like  everything can disturb me anytime and the anger just unleashes  ..."

"usually its just because  i had to clean every single second,its makes me so -so angry  and i don't   know how to deal with it anymore

Or because everytime anyone who'd see me in the castle goes on

oH, wOw HoW iRoNiC tHat ThE jAnITor Is wAlKinG trASH can
sometimes they'd freak out or they'd just keep mocking me

"I do not want to continue my life there ,that is not a desirable life "

"I just want to end this madness happening with me ,i wouldn't wish you'd see me that way "

"I don't want to be angry with you...
I don't want to hurt you
I don't want you to hate me because of that ..."

His words made you feel as if your heart got crushed when you herd these words , you felt sad for ash as an attempt to comfort him you put your hands on ash's cheeks , even though you hesitated at first that he'd might not like anyone touching him  since he never actually showed his face back on the castel ,but you refused to stay still  that  didn't sound right to you

for a while you expected your hands would get burnt due to Ash's firey-looking texture  but for a reason it felt warm and soft

"Ash ...its okay, i understand  "you started

"Y-ye do ?" ash questions

"Of course ash ... don't worry i know that you hated working back there and its fine ,i  understand that you really were dedicated to your work and its hard for you to take an actual break since it constantly needs cleaning and it's okay to take a break , and I'll always be here to listen to you if you want to talk about anything " you responded

"Y-y/n ..You will ? "ash questions

"Yes , i will  ash  i will be here for you "   you answered

"Thank you y/n im glad you're here with me " ash said