The challenge of secretly loving someone is overcoming your fear of speaking the matters that are palpitating inside of you.
It's true. I love my husband so much.. but how can i love someone if he doesn't love me? If he’s inlove with his first love. How cruel cupid are, do i deserve this situation?
I’m Dorothea Adelair Santiago, one of the powerful and rich in this damn Philippines. What Thea wants, Thea gets.. But not caelum, he’s into chiya. He's one and only beloved first love.
Cael and me are victims of arrange marriage. I love him and he don't. Well.. That's life, how unfair isn't?
“adel,” someone spoke at my back. That voice give me shivers in my spine. It's my husband
Nilingon ko ito at nakitang nakasuot ito ng pang pasok nyang damit. Mukhang papasok na sya sa trabaho at maiiwan na naman ako dito mag isa.
He's a workaholic man, palagi syang nag o-overtime na akala mo'y walang asawang nag aantay sa kanyang pag uwi. Sanay na ako sa ganoon sitwasyon namin dahil tatlong taon na kaming kasal pero masakit parin itong isipin.
Sa tatlong taon naming pag sasama ay ni minsan hindi ko naramdamang asawa ko sya. Hindi naman ako nag kulang sa pag papaalala na asawa ko sya, lahat ng mga mag asawa ay ginagawa ko para mapansin nya.
“Your spacing out, Adel” malamig na pagpuna nito
“Papasok kana?” tanong ko dito at tumango naman sya
“I have a meeting with the investors,” he answered and i just nodded with that.
“Are you going to have breakfast muna?” tanong ko at napatingin sa mga niluto.
“No, i’m going to be late” sagot nya at kinuha ang coat sa upuan at lumabas na.
napangiti ako ng mapait dahil sayang ang mga niluto ko, i woke up early in the morning just to cook this for him.. i guess i’m going to give this to our maid again. i’m not in the mood to eat.
“Hindi na naman ba kakain si cael dito?” tanong ni manang loli kaya tumango ako at umakyat na.
naligo ako at nag bihis, binuksan ko rin ang speaker ko at nag patugtog ng someone will loved you better by johnny Orlando
🎶Trying to fight, at war with my mind
It's gonna kill me to give you up
Darling, this is gonna hurt
No, I won't regret it
'Cause I loved you first
That lyrics give a pang in my heart.
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Naalimpungatan ako ng may maramdaman akong humahawi sa buhok ko. I know it's Cael, kabisado ko bawat galaw at pag hawak nya. Nanatili akong naka pikit at pinipigilan ngumiti dahil sa pinakikita sa asawa, pero napawi lahat ng pag iisip ko ng marinig ang tumutugtog sa cellphone ko na naka connect lang sa Bluetooth speaker. Sadya ba yan?
Hindi ko alam ay nakatulog pala ako at tumutugtog parin ang mga nasa playlist ko, Naririnig kong Glimpse of Us ni joji na ang tumutugtog. I'm fan of joji's songs they all work of art.
But glimpse of us hit diff.. Glimpse of Us is a dark love song where Joji compares his current relationship to the previous one.
🎶 And I try to fall for her touch
But I'm thinking of the way it was
Said I'm fine and said I moved on
I'm only here passing time in her arms
Hoping I'll find
A glimpse of us 🎶
Tell me right now na hindi nya nakikita si chiya sa akin. I'm fucking gonna cry if its true.
Gumalaw ako ng kaunti kaya umalis sya sa pwesto nya kanina at dumistansya. Nag mulat ako ng dahan dahan at nasalubong ko ang mga mapupungay nyang mata.
"What time is it?" i asked, i'm still sleepy pero dahil sa mga thoughts na lumabas sa utak ko ay nabuhay buong pagkatao ko.
"7:30 pm," he answered and looked away.
"Shit- Sorry about my bad mouth. did you.. eat na ba?" napapukpok ako sa ulo dahil nakalimutan ko syang lutuan ng pagkain.
He just nodded. Oh! i remembered, may dinner meeting syang with the investors nga pala. tumango tango na lang ako at bumangon sa higaan dahil mukha syang pagod.
