No Regrets [Jack Barakat]

All Or Nothing

Jack's POV

Yes, I was really wasted and no, I didn't know what I was talking about. I mean, I wanted go talk to her about our...situation today but I never had the chance to. And now I do but she'd probably not take me serious because I'm drunk. Wait, am I even serious? "Jack, do you realize what you actually said?" she asked a bit confused. She managed to pull a bit away from me, but I actually didn't want that. I wanted her pressed up against my body. "You probably don't take me serious. So it's better that we talk about this some when else" I said without even thinking. "I don't think that this is the right time to talk about this..." she kinda agreed and stood up from my bed. "No, Val wait. Please. Yes, it's not the right time to talk about this because I can't really think straight, but please don't leave" I pleased and sat upright. She already had her shoes in her hands and was about to leave. "Jack, it's always the same. We do something, ignore it, do it again, ignore it again and try to stay friends. But we know both that we're actually more than this. But we don't have the balls to talk about this. And now, we're about to do something 'not friendly' again and then we'll probably ignore it again. But I don't want that. I just don't want to be your friend. I want to be more, because you're more than a friend for me, for fucks sake! I'm sorry, but I can't play this game anymore. I don't care if you're drunk. You're always drunk!" she explained and then left with those words. I heard her steps when she walked down the stairs and I swear I heard her crying. I put my face in a pillow and screamed in it. I actually wanted to run after her and tell her that I love her. That I want her to be mine. But something stopped me from it. I don't know what it was, but I hate it.

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Valentine's POV

"C'mon! You need to get outside some when..!" Cass tried to get me out of my house. "Nah, I'm probably gonna meet him there" I whined and refused to stand up from the couch. "Okay, then we'll go and visit Molly! I bet you haven't seen her in such a long time. And your song is gonna be released soon, so I think it's time to tell her about it" she suggested. That wasn't even such a bad idea. I really haven't seen Molly in such a long time and she still doesn't know about the song yet. "But I want Ian to be there, too when I tell it her. But he's out with Elisa" I still refused and crossed my arms. "Nah, Ian can visit her another time. A) you need to get out here and B) you need to get this boy out of your mind!" she said and pulled me up from the couch. She dragged me outside and to her car. When she closed the doors of her car, she seemed happy that she finally got me out of my house. I've been spending A LOT of time there lately. I mean, that thing with Jack wasn't too easy to take. Our "conversation" was already some days ago and I didn't hear from him since then. I don't know if that means that he doesn't love me or whatever. "Hey! Don't think about him!" Cass said and snapped her fingers in front of my face. I didn't realize that we were already driving. "Yeah, I'm sorry" I said and tried to smile. "Okay, so did you already shoot a video for you single? How is it actually called?" she asked me. "No, we didn't shoot it yet. We planned that Molly is in it, too. And it's called 'Dear Molly' Oh, and Alex sings some lines in it" I told. Alex. Jalex. Jack. Dammit. Get off my mind! "Sounds really cool" she said and nodded her head. I looked at her and smiled before I looked out the window. We were already pretty close to Molly's house. I can't wait to see her, but I'm also scared of, what she'll say about the song. I don't know if she's gonna like it. And if it's even gonna help her. "Stop thinking! That's not good for you" Cass said and snapped again her fingers in front of my face. "Yeah, sorry. You're right" I said and smiled. Okay, no thinking. But how? My brain is an only thinking-machine. There's no button to turn the thinking off. Sadly. "How can I stop myself from thinking?" I asked Cass, because I was thinking again. Wow, I wanna count how many times I've used 'thinking' in the last sentences. 1, 2, 3,... Okay, that was a joke. Let's get serious again. Okay, I'm like never serious. SHUT UP BRAIN! "Okay, well let's listen to some music. Do you have a CD here?" Cass suggested. I searched in my bag for a CD and found 'Best Intentions' from We Are The In Crowd. Damn, I miss Tay. I took the CD out off my bag and put it in the CD-player. "Ohhh I love this band!" Cass squealed when 'Rumor Mill' played. "Me, too. I've met the band on Warped Tour. They're all really nice" I told and remembered the good times on Warped. Jack and me were friends and enjoyed the tour. Yeah, we had this "accident" but I still loved and enjoyed it. I mean with that the tour. Just in case you thought I was talking about something else...*cough*. Anyway...! I didn't want to think about him, remember? "Oh, you're so lucky..! I really miss touring with Hey Monday" Cass admitted and seemed to think about her time with Hey Monday. Her band is now for a pretty long time on hiatus and I have no idea when they're gonna reunite. Probably they're gonna do it like Fall Out Boy: being 3 years on hiatus and still not back! This band is driving me crazy. "I bet you're getting back together. But first you have to focus on The Voice! You're gonna win that baby!" I almost screamed because of all the enthusiasm that was suddenly building in me. Cass laughed and quickly looked at me before she focused on the driving again. After just a few more minutes, we reached Molly's house. I didn't call or text her so she doesn't know that 1) I'm coming and 2) that I'm bringing along one of her favourite singers: Cassadee Pope. After Cass pulled in the driveway and turned the motor off, we got out of her car and walked to the door. I knocked and got a few seconds later greeted by aunt Julia. "Valentine! Haven't seen you since too long! You look good" Julia told and hugged me. "Hi Julia. Thank you. Uh, this is my friend Cassadee. Cass, this is my aunt Julia" I introduced them. They shook hands and said how nice it was to meet each other. "Is Molly here? I need to talk to her" I asked and looked around in the house. "Yeah, she's upstairs in her room. Come in" Julia told and let us step in her house. "If you need anything, I'm right here in the living room" she said before Cass and me walked upstairs. I nodded before we reached the end of the stairs. I lightly knocked on Molly's before I walked in. "Hey Molly" I said and walked towards her. She was lying on her bed and listened to her iPod. When she saw and heard me, she pulled the earphones out of her ears and sat upright on her bed. "Val, what are you doing here?" she asked before she hugged me. "Well, I've got a surprise for you. Well, actually two" I explained and then Cassadee came in the room. Molly didn't seem to notice Cassadee before I nodded with my head in her direction. When she recognized Cass, her jaw dropped and her eyes wided. "Is that...?" she asked. "Yes, I am" Cass answered. "Come here and hug me!" Cass told and spread her arms. Molly couldn't believe it and stood up to hug Cass. "I can't believe it, I'm really hugging Cassadee fucking Pope!" she squealed still hugging Cass. I smiled, because I was so glad that my surprise was a good idea. When Molly and Cass pulled away, they sat on the bed next to me. "Good surprise?" I asked Molly. As an answer I've gained a bone-cracking hug from her. "Best surprise" she mumbled in my shoulder. "Oh wait, you haven't heard of the second surprise yet" I told and stuck my tongue out, after we pulled away. "What? What is it?" Molly asked really exited. "Well, Ian and me...actually the whole band feels so incredibly sorry for what happened to you. And we feel pretty guilty. I can see now, that you feel much better than before in the hospital. But we decided, that we're gonna do something for you and against the bullies" I told and made a little pause. "Tell me!" Molly begged and shook my arm. "We wrote a song for you. It's probably the best song we've ever written. It's co-written by Alex Gaskarth and he sings some lines in it, too. Soon we're gonna shoot a video for it and for that we need you in it" I finally told her the surprise. Molly was sitting there with an open mouth and no reaction. "Is she fucking serious?!" Molly asked Cass. Cass nodded and smiled at her. Then squealing and screaming and whatever, sounds a fangirl can make, followed from Molly. She jumped up and hugged me with such an energy, that I feel backwards. "DAMMIT, I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH! YOU'RE LITERALLY THE BEST COUSIN EVER!" she screamed while hugging me. I laughed and tried to push her away from me because I was barely breathing. "Molly...I.need.air" I mumbled and tried to catch my breath. "I don't fucking care" Molly said and refused to let me go. But when she finally did, I was relieved that my lungs were still working. "Oh my god, I can't believe it! First I met Jack from All Time Low, then you brought Cassadee Pope from Hey Monday here and then you said that you wrote a song for me and that I'm gonna be in that video AND that Alex Gaskarth sings some lines in it. Do you know how fucking much I love you right now?" Molly told and hugged me once more. "Oh, so you're gonna meet Alex, too because he's gonna be in the video, too" I said when she pulled away. "Oh my fucking god" Molly said and jumped up from the bed. She began to dance, jump and shout around 'I fucking love my cousin!'. Then she run down the stairs and told screaming her Mom what I just told her. "Hm, your cousin is a fangirl" Cass said and laughed. I nodded and smiled. Then we both went downstairs to Molly and Julia. Molly was still telling her everything with such a speed that just women can understand. After Molly was finished, Julia turned to me and hugged me. "Thank you so much" she whispered in my ear. When she pulled away, I saw that she had tears in her eyes. But those were tears of happiness and thankfulness. Molly was still jumping around and singing. "Wait, how's the song gonna sound like?" she asked still jumping around on the couch. "I have here a CD for you. Here's the song on it. But I'm just gonna give it to you, when you pinky-promise me that you give this CD to NOBODY. NOBODY is allowed to hear that until it's released" I told and took the cd out of my bag. We finished the song like 3 days ago. Molly came down from the couch and stood in front of me. "I pinky promise, I'll NEVER give this CD someone else until it's released" she said and held her pinky to my pinky. Our pinkies clutched together and then I smiled at her. "Good here you are" I said and gave her the CD. She looked at it quickly before she ran to the next CD-player. "Okay, but I need to go now. I've got a band meeting for the next tour" I first said to Julia and then shouted the same to Molly upstairs. "Okay, I'll text or call you" she shouted back. "I don't know how I can thank you for that" Julia said when I hugged her. "You don't have to. That was also my thank you to you, because you've been like a mother for me my whole life" I told. Julia smiled and had again tears in her eyes. "It was a pleasure to meet you, Cassadee" Julia turned to Cass and hugged her, too. She's always been a hugger. One of the things I love about my aunt. "Yeah, it was amazing" Cass said and looked a bit surprised about that Julia hugged her. Yeah, I mean they just met. Then we said goodbye and shouted also a goodbye upstairs to Molly. Then we walked out to Cass' car and sat in the seats. Cass drove out the driveway and turned the CD back on. 'Kiss Me Again' by We Are The In Crowd was on. "Can you please turn it off?" I asked Cass. She nodded and changed to the radio. It reminded my of Jack. Of that night where we both watched WATIC play and had that atmosphere. "I miss him" I said and looked out the window. "You're really in love with him. Why couldn't you admit it until now?" she wondered. "I don't know...I just couldn't. But now when I'm thinking about this evening again, I feel that I reacted wrong. I should've tell him that I love him even though he was drunk. I don't wanna live without him. Our relationship has always been so complicated" I told still looking out the window. "The best is, when you tell that him and not me" Cass said. I looked at her and then again out the window. "But does he love me, too?" I asked. "Haha, duh!" Cass said and smirked. She was right, it was actually obvious. "I need to do something...I know what!" I said enthusiastic. "Really? What?" she asked exited. "I'm not telling" I told and stuck my tongue out. Cass frowned and focused on her driving again.
After some minutes, we reached my house. When I said goodbye to Cass and opened the house door, I saw that all of my band mates and our manager Tim where already sitting on the couch and waiting for me. "Since when are y'all here?" I asked when I sat to them on the couch. "Oh, not sooooo long" Jerry said and smiled at me. "Okay, so now where everyone is here, we can begin!" Tim said and clapped in his hands. We were gonna talk about our next tour. All the tour dates and things like that. "So, we're about to make a tour together with Pierce The Veil, You Me At Six and All Time Low next year" he said and smiled bright. It seems like he's proud of himself that he could manage that. With All Time Low. I hope I have the chance to clear everything with Jack until then. "Sounds awesome!" Ian said enthusiastic. The others agreed and seemed really exited about it. Yeah, I mean we all love those bands and they're really successful. So a tour with them is gonna be really awesome. "Uh, Tim. I have a question" I said to Tim. He turned to me. "Can we kinda manage that we're gonna play an acoustic concert like next week or so here in Baltimore?" I asked. That was a part of my Get-Jack-Back-Plan. "Um, I don't know. I have to phone around and so. But I'm gonna do what I can to make that possible. But why do you want an acoustic concert?" he asked. I bit my bottom lip and told them my Get-Jack-Back-Plan. When I finished, they're faces lit up a bit and they smiled. "Tim, you need to make that possible!" Steve said to Tim. Tim nodded and said once more that he'll do everything he can to make it working. I thanked him many times before we went to the tour dates and everything. I was already getting really exited about that acoustic concert even though it wasn't even sure yet that it's gonna be possible.

a few days later...

Alex's POV

"Hold on, my phone is ringing" I said to the guys and held my finger up. I took my phone out off my pocket and walked away a bit. Without looking who it was, I picked up. "Hello?" I answered. "Hi Alex, here's Val" the person on the other side said. Val? Why was she calling me? "Oh, hi Val. What's up?" I asked and leaned with my back against a wall. "I have a question for you. Is it possible that you manage that Jack would be at our acoustic concert on Saturday?" she asked a bit shy. "Uh, yeah I think so. I'm gonna make something up. But why does he have to be there?" I asked confused. She told me what she's having for a plan and that's why Jack has to be at the concert. "Oh okay. Sure, he's gonna be there" I said and quickly looked at Jack who was sitting with Zack on my couch, playing video games. "Thank you so much Alex. That means a lot to me" she thanked me. "No problem" I said. After our goodbyes, we hung up and I sat back to Jack and Zack on the couch. "Who was that?" Jack asked not looking away from the TV. "Ah, just...a friend" I told. Jack looked a bit confused at me but then shrugged and killed the video-game-Zack with one shoot. "Haha! I killed you!" Jack yelled and Zack cursed.
Jack really needs a girlfriend, there's no doubt about that. He loves Val, I know that. He told me that once when we were at Warped. And Val loves him, too. But their relationship is so complicated, it always was.

[Please comment, vote and maybe follow :D what do you think will Val's plan be? comment below ↓.  title is from We Are The In Crowd's song 'All Or Nothing' ->
Haha, I'm right now pretty obsessed with WATIC, because I'm probably gonna see them in April, because they're coming here to Switzerland then *_* I'm exited, yeah :D And Warped Tour is coming here, too some when *_* I still can't believe it :')]