❝Whispers In The Dark❞ || Gojo x reader

Chapter 55

 

The pleasure of being touched.

The pleasure of being hugged.

The pleasure of being kissed.

If that's what love is like, you want to live like that.

It is so nice and comfortable.

With that, even the pain doesn't take away your smile.

Hear someone else breathing when you cuddle with him. This is it.
 
A very nice thing. This is your favorite. At least you know you're not alone. 

A sense of security and also the feeling that someone loves you. That someone cares about you.

You love this feeling.

Satoru promised you he wouldn't leave you.

And you believe him.

Especially now that you can lie on his chest. 

He whispers sweet words to you as you lie on him, cuddled against his body.

So safe and warm.

Everything comes out the way you wanted.

Satoru is with you.

Nanami remains your friend. He doesn't hate you. 

He gave Gojo a condition that he promised to fulfill. So the blonde can sleep peacefully, without thinking that something will be wrong with you.

Satoru won't hurt you. He promised he wouldn't do anything to you. You will not suffer.

As long as you are with him and do not want to leave him even for a moment. You are the safest.

You know it won't give you more freedom. But that's okay. This is perfect. You don't want to change that.

Rules are rules. You prefer not to break its rules. But you break the rules of everything else. Even Nanami's rules. And you don't care. 

Rules of life, rules of death.

The rules of happiness and unhappiness.

Love and hate. 

Pleasure and pain.

You break these rules because you live among them. 

You don't live or die like the others.

You are neither happy nor unhappy. 

You live neither in pleasure nor in pain.

You live in between it all.

Even though it is much closer to happiness and love, rather than unhappiness and hate. 

Anyone who does not know your feelings may think that it is so. That your life is the worst. That you would like to change them. 

That you are sick of this.

That you can't live the way you want because of Satoru.

But that's what you want to live like this.

You know how to live thanks to Satoru.

You know life is brutal. Dark. Terrible. And sometimes it's hard to walk through. Especially with your head held high. And it's even harder to go and not huddle in front of everything. 

Even the most painful moments of Gojo are better than moments of pain alone.

Health problems, no friends, mental problems, no help.