Leaving The Friendzone

Chapter 19

Elena Sergio.

Whenever I was told sorrow came at night, I thought it was a phase. There I was sitting beside my morrow in my room, wondering the kind of mess I was stuck in. Things became hard for me minute after minute. Getting a good night's sleep could be my solution but I couldn't seek them.

Matthews and I got into something heated for the same reason again. This part of our friendship was about to get normalized in our lives and I hated how things were. Matthews kept presenting himself to me as someone so insecure about the people I roll with even though he wasn't that way before.

I felt he wanted me to remain isolated and enclosed within my space. He was the only person I had got but it doesn't stop me from meeting and engaging with different people. His view about Kadjiri was something I couldn't tolerate. He was aware of my feelings for KJ, probably feeling inferior by his presence but painting him black in my head wasn't going to work.

How could he have thought that KJ would try to prank me and hurt my feelings? I saw all reasons for him to be wrong. First, he was a new student. Kadjiri had spent roughly a month in this school. He had become known for his cute looks and swags which is normal for every new student in the school. Probably he didn't run out of luck.

He was also a sweet being. The way he was ready to engage in conversations with me and having the same similarities with him, what else could go wrong? His kiss was passionate and his touch was electrifying. It caused my soul to tangle at his feet.

But what if Matthew wasn't wrong? My doubts tripped into my thoughts. Matthews would never make up something against someone or anything. Being friends with him made me study the kind of person he was and I never saw him that way.

Matthews was a selfless guy with a kind heart. He had this kind of determination that pushed him to get the right things done at the right time. He was very smart and he aced all his subjects in class, that was what got us closer. He helped me with issues I had especially in Mathematics. He was good with algebraic expression and trigonometry, something I found so difficult to deal with if not for him.

All the times we had our differences, he never told a lie about anyone only probably to hide something from me or escape from more discussion. In this case, I knew not what to believe. He saw Kadjiri as a beast but I saw him as an angel. KJ was pictured as a demon towards him but he was like a saint in my eyes. Whenever KJ did any wrongs, my eyes were never blind to see them. I would always read through the lines but I was stuck between them.

I never wanted to be in a situation where I had to pick my love life over my best friend. I wasn't even sure of the love life I was trying to build. I sighed. I lay flat on the bed, looking at my ceiling, seeking peace I couldn't find. I don't know what tomorrow will hold, well I had to live through it.

Tomorrow finally came, I had already reached school to continue my school activities. My eyes roamed around a bit to see if I would see Matthews anywhere. Yes, I cared about him. He was my best friend and I needed to be worried if anything bad happened to him but I stopped a second and thought about it. We ended the day on a bad note and we never called back to resolve our differences so I shouldn't take him to heart.

I walked to get my books from my locker just like I used to. I was sure to see Matthews any moment from now but I didn't. A part of me was waiting about by his locker which was beside mine. Not to be obvious, I kept roaming my hands in my locker pretending to search for something that didn't exist.

I froze and stuttered when someone's hands went around my waist side. I wasn't hoping for it to be Matthews and it interrupted me from my actions. Turning around, I realized who it was and my eyes opened in shock.