Her thoughts in words

Hope in The Struggle

New year, new beginnings
Funny how I thought that was so true when I was little.
The truth is that things change only if God wants them to.
Not because of a slogan, update or new priorities in your schedule.

It hasn't been easy, trusting in Him.
And Im not lying when I tell you my heart is weary and I feel weak.
I'm hurt because I feel I deserve the world.
I've been nothing but faithful and trusting
I've fallen and cried about my bruises
But I still got back up again.
God sees me losing hope and He pats my back saying
"Patience young one, it'll all make sense eventually"

I can't stop myself from crying wondering if I've done something wrong.
The voices in my head grow louder by the day, their cries getting worse still.
I sleep to avoid them, I play music to interrupt them
But in the end they're still there and I have to consciously get up and fight against them.

"With what?"
Prayer of course.
If you talk to God you'll surely hear from Him.
He could use anything to talk to you, even tik tok.
You just have to pay attention and avoid unnecessary talk.

"But I can't go on"
Nothing feels right anymore
Who told you that and why would you believe that crap.
If God has said it then His promise will ring through.
You just have to pray about it to keep your faith renewed.

Anybody who has been there will tell you it's hard
And unfortunately they're absolutely right.
You're not going to want to get up.
You'll want to stay down and let your dreams rot.
Every single thing in you will want to quit.
But remember;
The prize remains ever great, ever glowing for those who refuse to stop.

Author's note
I wrote this poem a few months ago when I was in a bad place. I still don't feel completely better but this poem help me put things in perspective. There's nothing quite like poetry that hits you in the feels... If you get what I mean. I hope you found comfort in this if you relate to it as well.