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history repeats itself ~ j.s.p {t}

𝚑𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚒𝚝𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 ~ 𝚓.𝚜.𝚙 {t}

Title: history repeats itself*

Love interest: James Sirius Potter

OC: Lily Abbot

Faceclaim: Abigail Cowen*

Time: James Sirius' 1st year* - James Sirius' 7th year

Status: taken by 

Description

James and Lily Potters' tale was a tragic one, of love only realized mere years before their untimely end. When their son first saw loss. When their son defeated the Dark Lord for the first time. It was a tale nobody wanted to have repeated, for fear of a similar ending. 

However, when James Sirius Potter bumped into Lily Abbot in Ollivanders', he fell madly in love, and the cycle began. 

Rejection after rejection, he never gave up, and as much as Lily felt bad every time she saw his crushed expression when she said 'no', she couldn't find it in her to say 'yes'. To go on a date, to entertain the theory that maybe, just maybe, they could be together. Because they couldn't. 

She was a complicated person, with a complicated home life. Her mother was sick, and her father was rarely home. There was never enough money for more than one meal a day, and even then, it had to be small so she could afford to buy her mother's medicine. 

She couldn't tackle another thing, let alone a relationship, which needed trust and attention and no secrets. That couldn't happen, so it was a 'no'.

He didn't understand, she knew that, but she also knew that she had to put all her attention onto keeping the one person who loved her alive. Her mother had to come first, over happiness, over love, over an escape.

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'Why do you always reject me?'

'I'm not in the mood for this conversation, Potter.'

'Please, Abbot. Why do you always reject me? I love you.'

'You don't love me. Nobody loves me. The one person who did is dead. Dead, Potter. My father is probably sleeping around with one of his mistresses, barely aware that my mother is gone and that I'm his child. Nobody loves me, Potter, so stop spouting bullshit and join the reality that this is never gonna happen. Ever. I can barely afford one meal a day in the holidays, you think I can afford to buy a Christmas present for my boyfriend? No chance."

Summary

Sometimes, life is hard. It was something Lily Abbot knew more than most, and James Potter had never had to think about. Until the girl he thought about on a daily basis snapped, revealing how everything in her life was a mess. How she could barely afford food with her mother's sick pay and now that said mother was dead, there was no money. Nothing, so no food. She was thinking about how she was going to survive the Christmas holidays and he was asking why she didn't want to go out with him. He wanted her to be loved, realise she wasn't alone and that it wasn't something she had to wonder about anymore.

Notes

- hannah dies quite early in the book

- her father was a one night stand and occasionally sends small amounts of money in the post but it only happens every few years or so, they have no other contact with him