choices

chapter three

george

we were walking and chatting to get to know each other more until a ring interrupted us.

"oh sorry, it's mine!" she chuckles and grabs her phone, looking at who is calling.

"he never calls me so it must be important. be right back." she smiled slightly, looking worried. I read the caller id, it says sapnap.

I didn't mean to eavesdrop but I did, accidentally." what happened? what emergency? oh god, is she okay? is he okay?" it continued, worried questions.

Oh god, what happened?

she turned to me with an apologetic smile. a weak one. I smiled at her too and she turned around again.

sighing, I think about the stuff Gracie said. she always carries around a small camera, is in a friend group of three but no one gets left out, she likes to play e guitar and to read, she wants to be a psychologist, her favourite colour is green or purple and she likes to hang out in the library, which I hadn't seen yet, and in the greenhouse.

almost forgot, she hangs out with her friends at the lake often. no matter if it's to take a swim, go canoeing, ice skate or just hang out there.

she seems cool, and she seems to like her world is perfect and always was, but I somehow know there's something she is hiding. something from her past.

I may be wrong but I somehow feel emotionally connected to her even though I met her today.

she finished the call and walked toward me, panicking. "I'm so sorry, my friend's sister has lung cancer and something happened to her. I'll go visit her and meet them in the hospital you can come with me i-"

"no, it's fine go visit them! I hope she's okay." I interrupted her and she smiles.

"I'll see you later!" she saluted me and sprinted out of the school.

the truth is, I didn't want to go since I didn't even meet them and it would make the situation awkward and I don't think they need any awkwardness right now.

and maybe I didn't want to be annoying.

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I dropped myself onto my bed, exhausted. after laying still for some minutes, I rolled down off the bed, having the urge to listen to music.

opening my bag, I already see my headphones and I take them out. after connecting them with my phone, I open Spotify and play a playlist.

Skyfall - adele

before the song can continue, I stop it and grab my e guitar. I turn it on again, start playing the
e guitar and sing, since no one is here.

This is the end
Hold your breath and count to ten
Feel the Earth move, and then
Hear my heart burst again
For this is the end
I've drowned and dreamt this moment
So overdue, I owe them
Swept away, I'm stolen

I sing my heart out, not too loud though, but you could hear it in my voice that this means something to me.

Let the sky fall when it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together
Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Face it all together at Skyfall
At Skyfall

my dream is to be a singer, my parents would never approve and I don't believe I'll even make it.

Skyfall is where we start
A thousand miles and poles apart
Where worlds collide and days are dark
You may have my number, you can take my name
But you'll never have my heart

I want to scream. I want to scream the lyrics till I can't scream anymore.

Let the sky fall (Let the sky fall)
When it crumbles (When it crumbles)
We will stand tall (We will stand tall)
Face it all together
Let the sky fall (Let the sky fall)
When it crumbles (When it crumbles)
We will stand tall (We will stand tall)
Face it all together at Skyfall

Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall
Let the sky fall
When it crumbles
We will stand tall

this part is my favourite and I nearly started screaming.

Where you go I go
What you see I see
I know I'd never be me without the security
Of your loving arms keeping me from harm
Put your hand in my hand and we'll stand

Let the sky fall (Let the sky fall)
When it crumbles (When it crumbles)
We will stand tall (We will stand tall)
Face it all together
Let the sky fall (Let the sky fall)
When it crumbles (When it crumbles)
We will stand tall (We will stand tall)
Face it all together at Skyfall

Let the sky fall
We will stand tall
At sky fall

I hear a knock as soon as I finish. fuck, did I actually start screaming? "come in!" I said and my face flushed red.

the door opens and reveals gracie, her mouth wide open. " you can sing?" she asks me with so much shock.

I laugh and nod. "that was amazing! you have to help me with my e-guitar since I'm shit at it." I grin and she just rambles about how good that was.

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the wind made the leaves fall, the breeze made me freeze and the moonlight made my room shine.

I tuck myself in my blanket and sigh. the beginning of the end, I mean it in a good way like the last few years were an era, and a new one is starting.

that sounds dramatic but I think I'm good at writing poetry since I made the "the wind made the leaves fall, the breeze made me freeze and the moonlight made my room shine" and the "the beginning of the end".

The most accurate one is the first, though.

everything is dark beside the light of the moon, I see the leaves falling and I feel cold.