[genshin impact] each others delusion chilumi

the 12th

i kept mourning  the whole night and childe stayed with me he kept wiping my tears but they just won't stop

its morning the day i am going to be called as 12th harbringer childe isn't here , duty calls
i took a deep breath
i don't know why i hate everyone

i got up took a bath and just layed on my bed
someone knocked on my door i opened up a little to peek it was childe i
let him in
childe = i was sent here to call you , you are becoming an official harbringer but if you don't want to we could jus-

i kept my hand on his mouth
y/n = say congratulations to me i am the 12th harbringer i removed my hands and kissed him on his lips
it was the first time when i kissed him and he didn't kissed me back he just stood there standing still

when i broke the kiss his eyes were even more dull than before

childe = i thought you didn't wanted to become a harbringer i thought you didn't wanted your hands to be bloodstained

y/n = everybody is playing this game in a dirty way guess i will go nasty too

childe = you were crying last night ?
y/n = and today i am smiling

childe = what happened to you y/n??

y/n = oh so you only liked that girl who needed to be protected are you scared that if i became a harbinger i will get power huh ?

childe = what y/n no why are you saying this i love you no matter what you are but you are acting different ??

y/n = if you don't want me then just tell me

childe = y-y/n why are you saying this ?? i never said anything like that i love you please don't say such things

i pushed him on the floor
y/n = don't you ever show that ugly face of yours to me ever again
and i walked out of my room

childe's pov

i fell to the ground
but nothing ever hurted more than this i have done many things that i shouldn't have but this time i was trying to do something i should do , falling in love with her was soo easy just her looking me in my eyes was enough but i don't even know what i did all of it , it didn't made sense at all 

don't you ever show that ugly face of yours to me ever again

her words kept ringing in my ears i got up wiping the tears in my eyes and went to the ceremony like nothing ever happned

tsaritsa was giving y/n her delusion she was on her knees and and she gave it to her she also gave a fatui crest to her everyone clapped tsaritsa sat on her throne again

she spoke with her ice cold tone
tsaritsa = y/n you are now the 12th harbringer and as a harbringer great responsiblities lie upon you and i don't want my dear daughter to go through all of that alone so you will carry out your missions with my 12th harbinger

y/n = but mother i hate that basstard
all the harbingers laughed

i just closed my eyes never ever have i felt this way

tsaritsa = but you got along with him pretty well , and to my knowledge wasn't he with you in your bed just few hours ago ?

my eyes opened up wide with shock how does she knows
y/n = i must have been drunk to do something so disgusting

y/n is hurting me with her every word why is she doing this to me

tsaritsa = well i don't know you have to be with him you are dismissed now

y/n = but mother
tsaritsa = i said you are dismissed

she walked towards me
no not towards me but towards exit because i was standing at the exit she gave me a disgusted look and walked away

i wanted to end my life right at that moment
but scaramouche came

scaramouche = awwwww looks like your beautiful girlfriend doesn't likes you anymore

childe = MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS SCARAMOUCHE OR ELSE I WILL KILL YOU 

scaramouche = there might be other things that will kill you . heyy Y/N come to my room at 9 pm

scaramouche shouted

she was at an audible distance

y/n = sureeeee
she replied

whyy is she doing this to me what did i ever did to deserve something soo bad pleaseee y/n don't do this to me please how do i tell you i love you how

scaramouche = you saw that --

i didn't wanted to listen him anymore i kept on walking i walked past y/n to then out of the castle then to an abandoned park and sat on a bench
it was the place where i used to play i sat there cursing my life and this cruel fate.