text me. // lrh

thirty-nine.

(3 new messages!)

unknown number;

sorry i haven't texted lately

i figured you're upset with me

so i wanted to give you space

em;

i'm not upset

unknown number;

you're not?

em;

no

but i'm disappointed

unknown number;

i feel like that's worse

em;

look, i need to say a few things

then you can decide where to go from there

unknown number;

okay

em;

i really like you, i know you know that

and i feel like you like me too

but everytime you take a step forward and i get hopeful

you take three giant steps back

and it feels so repetitive

you avoid me, apologize, promise it'll be different

i don't know if it's you being insecure, or scared

but you're not being honest with me and honestly, it hurts

unknown number;

emmy

em;

i'm almost finished

i went through some bad, bad stuff with someone a while ago

mike beat the shit out of him, it got that bad

and you avoiding me, apologizing and promising you'll try

just seems fake at this point

i mean, i'm not trying to be dramatic or make this a massive deal

since clearly we don't know each other

but you make me happy, i love talking on the phone with you

i don't talk to people like i talk to you

it's just not working, i guess, this dynamic

i need something, anon

just anything.

unknown number;

emmy i

i didn't realize 

i'm not trying to avoid blame, i truly didn't realize how much my actions hurt you

i do really like you, you make me extremely happy

i'm so nervous about being myself and being open

the ex i told you about?

absolutely destroyed every bit of confidence and privacy i had

she used me, exploited me, you name it, all to get to my roommate

it was two years, em

two years, i thought i had loved her, really

everyone told me how bad of a person she was and i ignored it

but she played with my emotions for two years

and i shut down, you know?

basically everyone on campus knew what happened, i couldn't just jump back into dating like everything was normal, not that i really wanted to

and then i met you.

em;

luke

fuck, i'm sorry

you told me your name while you were drunk the other night

unknown number;

i know, i sort of remember

it's okay

i promise

you can call me luke

(contact name changed to luke.)

em;

luke

both of us have gone through shit, albeit very different shit but shit nonetheless

it's gonna take a lot of time for the both of us

but i want to see where this goes

luke;

so do i, em

i really do

em;

i'll be by the fountain tonight

if you wanna see where this goes, then i'll see you there

if not, i understand

luke;

that sounded like it came straight from a YA novel

em;

you're ruining the moment, loser

luke;

sorry, sorry