September 21, 2022
10:45 AM
I pity my father.
Not because he doesn't have the privilege to go to school and only finished grade school,
Not because he doesn't have friends and have a big ego,
Not because he doesn't have a job and only rely on my mother.
But because he was treated like nothing.
I pity him,
Whenever he stays quiet at my older brother's shout and curse at him,
I pity him,
Whenever he just accepts my older brother's order.
I pity him,
Whenever my mother bad mouth him to others
I pity him,
Whenever he look at me and ask me if I have eaten yet.
I pity him,
When I saw how he tried to sell his 'maruya', 'kanin' and 'palamig'
Only for my older brother to mock and belittle him
I pity him,
Whenever I tried to support his small business
He will just say to take whatever I want for free.
And it hurts me,
To see how broken he is.
I wanted to help him,
I wanted to protect him,
But I can't.
Because growing up,
He was mean to us.
He always curse and shout at us.
He emotionally abuse us.
He sometimes beat my older brother.
So I guess this is his karma.
But still,
I pity my father.
