stuck with a phobia ; lee felix

author's note (pls read)

guys...we made it!

after two years of working on this fic, i've finally ended it here. honestly, i cant believe it's taken me this long.

it really is difficult saying goodbye to this book, but i suppose that's how most authors feel after working on a book for so long. yet after everything, i just wanted to end off by saying once more to all of you, my amazing readers, thank you.

thank you for sticking with hailee and felix, even when my updates take too long. honestly even i get annoyed with how long it takes me to post chapters, but i truly cannot write or publish anything without being in a comfortable and quiet mindset (which apparently is not very frequent). regardless, everyone is so patient and understanding <3

thank you for your reactions that are constant reminders that people still enjoy my book no matter how discouraged i feel. thank you for the unconditional support and encouragement through every time i wanted to leave this story behind. thank you for just being here.

i still remember wanting to discontinue this story before it even got 50 reads bc i thought it was a dumb idea no one would care about, but i'm so glad this book reached out to people.

i started this book at the height of the pandemic two years ago, when things were ridiculously unbearable. writing this was how i coped, but then i just got too invested in my characters' romance LOL

i've grown a lot since i first published this book, and along the way, i guess i didn't mean for this to be just romance. i wanted to really dissect hailee's growth as a person, because well, she kind of reflects me.

i know she can be annoying, but i swear i'm not this annoying irl.

on that note, i wanted to clarify that i am NOT romanticizing trauma or behavior induced from parental neglect. that is not what this book is. yes, most of it and probably nearly all of it rotates around hailee's growth from her abandonment issues with budding romance from felix, but i am not glamorizing the idea of absent parents.

but yeah, hailee's come incredibly far on her own with the help of an amazing friend. i hope this book can be a sense of comfort towards anyone who needs it, reminders that you are enough despite your own voices shutting that down.

i'll always encourage anyone to reach out if they want to. please feel free to use my message board, my dms, or even this story as your escape. i'd love to be someone's felix <3

if you wish to stay and read my other works, here's what else i published/will be publishing soon!!

- scintillating ; lee minho (published & ongoing)

- worlds apart ; another lee felix ff! (coming soon! if you follow me, yk i wanted to make a reincarnation ff for a while now)

- eyes on me ; hwang hyunjin (coming soon)

pretty much have danceracha down LOL but i am now open to hearing any recs you guys want me to write!

and now i'll end it off here. i love you guys <3