Distant Memories (Cynonari)

Discovery of the ages

"Ouch watch it-"
Cyno winced and covered his eyes to avoid the pain.
His personal tattoo artist was carefully touching up some of his more faded body artwork.
If his father would let him leave the house he could at least have someone who didn't take forever trying to "not hurt him".
Even if the slowness was the thing that made the pain more noticeable and unbearable.
"I'm done sir I'll take my leave"
I sat up and shooed him out of my room as I inspected the wolf like beast that trailed down my shoulder.
Having these were the things that keep my rebellious state from my father.
He couldn't do anything about my tattoos although at-least he gained more money from them due to the ending fans.
Sometimes I just wish I could leave for one night and spend the night staring at the stars.
Hopefully someone would be looking up at those same stars.
I was incredibly lonely.
Seeing nobody but my servants and being looked up in my room like a precious gem in a museum.
No way out.
My body guards covered every exit no matter how much I tried to escape my father only punished me further.
I still remember his words.
"Son you have to continue family legacy! Once you turn 25 we will issue a arranged marriage with Mis Nilou of the sumeri family. They are extremely valuable business partners we can't afford this. It's your duty son. I won't allow this unholy behaviour."
He was so cold.
Never once were there guilt in his words.
This was said to me at age 7 when I made two of my dolls kiss.
Those dolls happened to be men.
I knew from the moment I laid eyes on another boy that I didn't like girls.
If only my father would stop and think before trapping me away with some women.
I wanted real love.
Sighing I flopped onto my large 4 poster bed just watching the silk canopy flow in the gentle breeze.
My windows had bars on them so I could open them for fresh air.
I picked up my phone.
8pm.
Maybe some of my favourite boy bands had uploaded.
Tapping on safari I typed.
"C-a-m-s-t-a-r b-o-y"
I found that they haven't uploaded so I decided to keep scrolling down for the latest tea.
A website caught my eye.
"Canstar.com/camreaboys/Fenex-live"
Maybe it was something interesting?
I mean what did I have to lose I was just going to lay here doing nothing anyway.
My finger met with the link before taking a couple seconds to load.
It brought me to a live stream.
My eyes sparkled and I felt my heart leap.
A beautiful young boy with eyes of gorgeous green was sitting on his bed talking to his bustling chat.
My heart was beating so loud I could hear it in my ears and a heavy blush dusted my face.
The way his voice sounded sassy and cute at the same time made my stomach do loops.
I found myself just admiring his features one by one.
Soft but defined jawline with a pair of small and smooth lips.
A button nose with draping locks of hair covering the sides of his head.
I tried to comment as-well but it said I needed an account.
Sighing I clicked sign up and it took me to App Store.
FUCK.
iPhones can be so annoying.
I downloaded the app while continuing to watch the small boy in a tab.
Tapping on the app I signed up for an account.
My username needed to be something free and more me.
'Gay wolf'
No-
'Lupushomoness'
No-
'Rainbowwolf'
NO- this was impossible!
Wait.
'Lupan'
Simple and it couldn't be directed at me.
If my father knew I was watching such things he would kill me.
After I made my account the app directed me back to the green boys stream.
I saw his username is 'Fenex' with a blue tick next to it.
I followed him instantly and watched the chat.
"Oh my Fen when will you take off your shirt??"
What.
The boy who seemed to be called 'Fen' giggled and I watched him slip his large yellow hoodie off.
I audibly gasped as I scanned his shirtless frame.
People started donating to him asking him to do such perverted things.
I was still stunned and blinking at his perfect attire.
My hands dashed to the donation button.
Maybe a small amount of mora?
'Lupan has donated 1,000,000 mora with message Hi'
Fens eyes widened at my remark and he fanned his face before speaking to me.
"Wow that is by far the largest donation I've ever received have you done this before?"
I typed away in the chat.
Lupan- No this is my first time in such a place.
"Shouldn't you use that kind of money for better things?"
Fen giggled and it melted my heart.
Lupan- what do you mean?
I watched his eyes widen.
"My guy just how rich are you??"
Lupan- Not sure
"Okay okay I'll do one thing for you. Chat what should I do for him?"
My eyes scanned his chat.
'Pull it out for him'
'Give him a special'
'Finger yourself'
Gosh some of these comments were horrific.
People can be so righteous on the internet.
I watched Fen pull down his little shorts.
My instinct told me to turn around but my eyes couldn't move.
The chat started to spill with lewd comments about his naked body.
His curves were impressive and submissive.
He spoke to me again.
"I'm going to attempt this so if I fuck up don't laugh at me"
As soon as he reached down I knew what he was doing.
Watching his hand move in such ways was making my body hot.
I really liked his personality and confidence plus his body was exquisite.
His hand brushed up and down his small but pretty length.
Red face like the deep colour of my eyes and panting like he had just run a mile.
I was caught up in his looks when I was shot back into reality by the soft sounds he started making.
Never being exposed to this stuff as a teenager had strained my body.
My father always keep me hidden unless I was in-front of a camera.
He spoke to me again in-between his soft breaths.
"Lupan I want you to touch yourself to"
My eyes widened.
I have never done that before would it even be okay?
I've only read about such things in boy love story's I found on Wattpad under a fake name.
Looking down and noticing I was already hard as a rock from this small boy I sighed.
I'm 22 it's probably time to expose myself to these things anyway yes?
Hesitantly I slipped my hand into my track suit.
Watching the green boys movements and copying them slowly.
I felt an unfamiliar feeling dwelling in my stomach but it wasn't a bad one.
The green boy spoke again as if he knew what I was doing.
"Enjoying the sight? Just follow my lead"
I did as I was told and followed his smooth patterns until the feeling kept building.
Wait I had read about this.
It was to late now.
My head threw back against the pillow and I felt my heart beating throughout my entire body.
Lifting my hand out of my boxes followed by a trail of slime.
I screamed and flicked my hand around before wiping it frantically with a tissue.
My eyes went back to my screen to see the green boy make a loud sexy noise before a string shot out of him.
I blinked twice before clicking the donation button again.
'Lupan has donated 1,500,000 mora with message Thanks for teaching me something new'
The green boy calmed down and sat up.
"You have never done that before? Are you a child???"
My eyes widened and I typed.
Lupan- I'm 22
"And you have never touched yourself before until then?"
Lupan- I wasn't exposed to much
"W-Wow that's unexpected- also you shouldn't throw that kind of money around-"
I sighed and sank deeper into my bed.
Listening to him ramble about costs and wages while he was completely naked.
I was absorbed in my thoughts when he spoke.
"Thank you all for tonight and a special thanks to my new favourite viewer Lupan! I'll see you all tomorrow night same time!"
'Favourite viewer?'
My eyes lit up and my heart was beating so face.
I watched his stream end and I held my phone to my chest.
Is this what love felt like?
Maybe google?
It was already passed 12am by this point but I typed it in anyway.

Wait-
Panic? Despair?
This all sounds like someone dying?!?
Am I going to die if I'm in love with this small green boy.
A notification dropped from the top of my screen.
'Fenex wants to send a message'
I gasped and threw my phone.
HE MESSAGED ME-
My face was flushed and I threw my second pillow and began bashing my head with my first.
I spoke to myself.
"Okay okay calm down it could just be a thank you"
The gay panic was real.
I crawled over to my phone as if it was a toxic substance.
Tapping the screen and opening the request with shaky hands.
Fenex- You seem interesting I want to get to know you.
I audibly squealed and hugged my phone.
Someone wants to know about me??
Without knowing my looks!?!
That's incredible.
I've never had a human generally interested in me for not being my father's prodigy.
Lupan- Oh what would you like to know?
He wrote back fast.
Fenex- hm how about your name?
Lupan- wouldn't that be a little unfair? What if you told someone
Fenex- name exchange? You seem to innocent to leak my name
Lupan- Alright my name is Cyno
Fenex- That name is rather familiar. Cool that you have the same name as a model. I'm Tighnari.
He was clueless which I was glad about.
Lupan- I guess it's cool. Can I call you Nari?"
Fenex- Sure I guess.
Fenex- I need to sleep it's getting late but I'll chat you in the morning kay? ^^
Lupan- okay have a goodnight Nari
Fenex- Goodnight Cyno <3

I dropped my phone out of my hands.
He.sent.a.heart.
Squealing again I placed my phone on my desk and wiggled around in my covers.
I haven't been this happy since mum was around.
Looking out the window into the moonlight I spotted her headstone being illuminated.
The sky's endless stars beaming down where she rested.
"Goodnight Mum"
I turned over and closed my eyes.
All I could dream about was him.