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Chapter 3

tw: homophobia

some angst but dont worry it gets fluffy as we move into the next chapter :D

Tommy P.O.V

I groaned as someone shook me awake. My eyes fluttered open as I saw Tubbo standing over me, shaking me violently.

"What the f-" I let out a yelp as my sentence was cut short with Tubbo yanking me out of my chair.

"Hurry up! We gotta go meet someone at 2, and it's already 1PM. How did you manage to sleep that late? You've been passed out for more than 12 hours, which is great because you are sleeping more, but kinda concerning. I came in and I thought you were dead!" Tubbo said.

I rubbed my eyes. That dream last night was something else, I thought. Then I realised something. 

Holy hell, I fell in love with a boy. An imaginary boy that is. HOLY FUCK WHAT? NONO IM STRAIGHT! HOW- My thoughts were interrupted with Tubbo waving his hands in front of me.

"Tommy, you good? You look like you're on the verge of tears."  Tubbo asked.

homophobia starts here. skip if ur uncomfortable.

I was on the verge of tears. I can't believe.. im probably gay. what the fuck? 

*flashbacks*

I was suddenly on the swings in a park, hanging out with my childhood best-friend, I think his name was Jack. I had a crush on him, yet I didn't know why.

"Jack!" I chirped.

"Hello Toms! What's up?" He said as he walked over to where I was. I got really nervous as butterflies filled my stomach.

"I, um..." I started

"You what?"

"I have a crush on you!" I blurted. It was too late to turn back. Jack stared at me with disgust.

"EW YOUR GAY" Jack yelled, pointing at me. Suddenly everyone at the park turned to look at me.

"Jack, wait-"

"EWWW GROSS I CANT BELIEVE IM FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE GAY!" Jack jabbed his finger at me.

"Jack s-stop pl-lease!" I cried, tears welling up in my eyes as Jack pushed me off the swings. I kept begging him to stop, and he just ignored my pleas.

*End of flashback*

homophobia ends here

I realised I was full on sobbing as Tubbo wrapped his arms around me. 

"It's okay bossman, im here. Tell me whats wrong?" He asked, worried.

"I-i thi-ink im-m g-gay a-and im sc-cared, Tubbo w-what do I d-do?!" I sobbed, struggling to speak.

"Woah, how did this happen?" Tubbo asked, leaning forward to look me in the eyes. I could tell he was still processing this new information

"I d-dont know! I j-just fi-ind myself-f grav-vitating t-towards men, and I c-cant stop! I like-e women-n too, bu-but also men. I-im so c-confus-sed!" I cried out, tears spilling out of my eyes.

Tubbo patted my back, rubbing circles against my shirt.

"Shhh, im here, im here." Tuboo said comfortingly as he pulled me into a hug. We sat there on the floor for about 5-10 minutes while I cried my heart out. I didn't want to get hurt again.

"Hey, its 1:20PM, let's go get ready. You can sleep at the cafe. Sound good?" Tubbo asked. I sniffled and nodded, letting his arms slide off me. I watched him stand up and exit my room, closing the door behind him.