author's musings unrelated to SunSun

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I watched love in the rain. And the story ... Prapai and Sky's story has me in such a chokehold. Imagine the absolute terror Sky must have felt when faced with his worst fears again. The way he just gave up, the way he stopped fighting when he heard that he had been given away again ... Betrayed again by the person he loves. I cried so much watching Sky break again. And when Pai found him and Sky just asked him so timidly if he couldn't just belong to him. If he can't just be his. Sky just wanted to belong to Pai and not be given away to others again.

God I am so broken over this story. And as usual my brain went and thought of an angst worthy scene for SunSun but ... But I can't write it down because it still hurts. I want to see Sunghoon piecing back together a boy who has the sharpest tongue, the sassiest attitude and a wall guarding his heart. I want to see Sunghoon slowly learning what makes Sunoo ... Sunoo. I want him to see the parts of Sunoo that Sunoo tamped down harshly in order to survive. Watch Sunoo be loved for all that he is and watch him learn to love himself. To see himself the way Sunghoon sees him. I want to see how Sunghoon would heal and bring back the smile on Sunoo's face. And discover that the boy he first fell for isn't the boy who he has now in his arms all smiley and happy. I want to see Sunghoon fall all over again harder for the person he has watched heal.

I am in an angsty mood oh gods. I just can't envision a broken Sunoo though because it breaks my heart so never getting around to writing that scene I am afraid.

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