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Chapter 38: Blame the Fucking Killer

A/n: Okay so I re-read this and its so dramatic for no reason at all.  Also its a pretty long chapter... I also still don't know why I keep writing Mattheo so emotional.

Bella's POV-

"Bella!" Harry's voice yells. I begin opening my eyes slowly as I look around my half-decorated room, "Bella come on your going to be late!"

I sit up as I look around. 

Shit.

I forgot all about school and Beabatons... 

Damnit.

"Come on your going to miss the carriage!" Harry says as he bursts in my room pulling me off my bed.

"Alright I'm up!" I yell to him as I quickly brush my hair,"Now get out I have to get dressed first!"

To be honest, I was hoping that all that happened yesterday was a dream. I was hoping that I'd wake up in London again.

But this is no longer London, its France, the place I've lived for almost all my life... The place I didn't realise I missed.

But... Even though I missed being in France, its not the same anymore.

I used to think my life was complete and I had everything I've ever wanted.

I had a nice looking school, A nice name for the school that doesn't combine two very unattractive things; Hogs and warts.

 but now things feel incomplete.

It feels like there's a big portion of myself that I left behind at Hogwarts.

But hey, maybe somebody feels complete again without me being there.

Maybe my friends feel relieved to finally get rid of the Potters they pretended to like, because let's be honest, the Slytherins never really liked me, nor did Hermione, Ron, Cedric maybe and many other I know for a fact pretended to like me.

I doubt that I have even crossed they're mind. I could go a month missing and they'd still never notice until I send them a letter.

Maybe they're happy. Maybe I was just a burden or maybe I was like a small koala that wouldn't let go of them... Maybe they feel relieved. 

(A/n:Not the second Koala reference in my books😭🖐) 

It doesn't matter anyways, I'm sure I'll find something else to make me feel more at home.

Maybe if I just forget about everything bad happening everything will be fine... I'll act as if I'm not about to die at anytime, any day.

Mattheo's POV-

I placed a book down on my table that I had previously been reading.

Am I still upset after Bella has left? Of course.

Will I find unhealthy ways to deal with it? Most likely.

But... Why do I have to pretend I'm okay?

Like I said its not just Bella. Its everyone.

Half my "friends" hate me. And the hate just keeps piling up if I don't tell them what happened to Bella.

But what's the fucking point? They don't care enough to figure it out or ask Dumbledore did they?

Ugh I hate having these so called,"Friends" they're all fake. They cry a few tears when you first leave then the next day they're replacing you.

And how easily Pansy just gave up is unbelievable. Honestly I would have actually killed her if she didn't tell me where Bella was with or without the dagger.