out of my league

chapter 4

The next day I was at the library starting as usual… .

Still sleepy… didn't sleep yesterday properly but this is the only place I love where I can be alone without any worries.. The quiet place… .now just holding a book… it’s better way to cover my face… . Library is the only escape for my anxiety issues… so quiet and relaxing I can hide myself in the corner of the library .....its the history section .....here are many books I love their smell and they all like all friends for me ...each of them has their own story to tell.....I pick up some of my favourite ones and started to read its like another world for me the only thing I like except Allie {oh GOD what am I thinking She could never agree to date someone gross like me. .....she's totally out of my league ...I should never get my hopes up..it will only bring pain and misery and nothing else}.I was so much absorved in my thoughts that I was totally unaware of whats happeninhy in the outside world ...suddenly I heard something

"oh no....."

when I take a peek diverting my eyes from the book I was holding I saw a total mess.....many books were scattered on the ground ...I saw a girl with slender figure holding a pile of books ...I cant see her face only her curly black hair[step layer cut or v cut maybe]....none used to come to this corner of the library as obvious everyone hates history

"um ...hey I dont mean disturbing you but could you please help me to pick up the books as both of my hands are occupied ...." the girl saiud this in a shy trembling and low voice tone

I stand up " um sure " I stand up and again got stuck between the chair and table because of my fat belly ......maybe the gitrl could see it too omg she would think I shoul;d never ask help from this pathetic loser .....

"um please hurry I cant hold them anymore theyu will also fall eventually

um...but if you dont wanna help sorry I should not have asked you in the first place" she said in a sad tone

"no its not like that wait a minute " I protested

I came to her and started to pick up the books one by one from the ground

I collected all the books and put them on the table

I saw her hands are trembling she's still holding a pile of books upto the height of her head

both of us could not see each others face…

I took some of the books from Her hand and place them on the table in that process I touch her hand by accident

And then we are totally exposed to each other

Now I can see her eat a girl with glasses … two or three curly bangs decorating her small face… she was Still lowering her gaze did not attempt to make an eye contact… I thought maybe she is too shy. . But then the worst possibility came to my mind. …

“ oh my God what I have done so sorry I should not have taken the books without asking you. .. I did not have any

bad intention”… .. I thought maybe she is very embarrassed to think what a fat ugly guy taking advantage of her… now she is regretting she should never have asked me for help in the first place… . ..

“ hello are you listening”

The girl for the first time look that me and then again lowered her gaze… .. “Um both of my hands are occupied so could you please pull the chair from the table so that I could seat. … if you don't mind “ She stood there are waiting for my reply… . I soon realized she was talking to me… . “ oh yeah sure” I pulled the chair from the table and signalled heart to sit… . .

She shyly took her seat and began to adjust her glasses… .

Then she took some of the books and started to search for something. … .