Pluviophile | Levi Ackermann × Reader |

|Chapter 15| Phase

We had returned back to the Scout's Headquarters many days prior to now, and I was tingling with the urge to avoid the Captain at all costs.
Every time I saw him in the halls, I'd scurry to the other direction. Every time I'd see him in the Mess Hall, I'd nearly inhale my food before rushing out.

I didn't hate him, no. Quite the opposite.

I didn't know how to deal with what I felt for him, so my best option was to distract myself; forget all about it.

Though, it looked like he had taken notice of my attempts at running from him. He had begun to strike up small talk with me whenever the chance arose, and he would give me looks in the halls whenever I switched destinations. It was almost impossible to stay away from him, especially since I also truly wanted to be around him. But I couldn't allow that- at least not now. I'd make a mess of myself.

I felt like a teenage girl all over again, only this time... Older and much less cute.
At least in my eyes that's how I saw myself. I could only hope what Levi said about me that one time was true, that I was beautiful.

"Y/n," I turned to stone at the voice of someone I definitely did not want to talk to right now.. "Why are you avoiding me?" The Captain stood before me, eyes narrowed.

I warily turned around, a fake smile plastered on my cheeks. "What do you mean? I'm not avoiding you."

"You are," He insisted plainly. He was upset.

I felt my earlier confidence wash away, beginning to feel bad about my decisions. But I still couldn't admit it.

"Am not," I argued, turning my head away as I straightened my posture firmly.

"You are."

"What makes you think that, Captain?" I ignored his glare, placing my hands on my hips.

"The way you've been acting," Levi and I stood in the library, enveloped by rows and rows of books. We were in an isle in the back, far from other people. The sunlight forced it's way in through the circular windows, an orange color decorating the room. "In the past you were so set on inviting yourself into my life, and now that you've filled a spot, you just vanished completely."

Sweat began to form on my chin. "I..."

He interrupted anything I would have managed to speak. "I'll ask again," This time he spoke more profoundly. "Why are you avoiding me, Y/n."

My mouth was dry, and I was now pressed up against a bookshelf. He reached a hand up and placed it beside my head, imprisoning me against the books. He was dangerously close, and I was choking on my heartbeat.

"Captain..." My lashes fluttered as I stared intensely into his eyes. "You're stepping on my foot."

The mood died, and he removed his foot from mine, sighing. "Sorry."

"No, it's all right," I slipped under his arm and circled behind him. The deathly quiet air was unusual, even for a library. I found myself dying to get away, deteriorating every second.

Levi stepped away, suddenly more sheepish. His head was down. "If you can't tell me, I understand..."

I clenched my fists. "It's really not that I can't... I just don't know how to put it into words," I said. "I'm sorry. I'll tell you when I can figure things out."

Levi took a moment before nodding.
"Alright."

I smiled. "Thank you for understanding... And- I'm sorry I've been avoiding you."

He shook his head. "It's fine."

He then stepped up. "Just don't do it again," He whispered lowly in my ear. I felt his words travel around my body, forcing my limbs to turn to mush, a faint blush forming on my cheeks.