Inner Ramblings

Part 2

POV: you rant into your notes in order to not lose your mind and ruin a friendship (I think)/ or even a whole friend group dynamic lol I hate this band my head against the wall
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Bro I hate how much I like want your attention like it's genuinely pathetic the shit I'll do. Wtf it's so gross. You really don't care and I know that and I know u wont care so I j gotta give up yk. I really I wanna block u or unadd you but that would cause so many problems. Actually would it. You like don't hang out w us anymore so does it reallyyyyy matter. Like no not really. Maybe I should. Wait no. You'd totally notice and b like this girl is crazy I did nothing to her and like your so right u didn't so it would I be unnecessary drama even tho I kinda crave the drama. Dude idk. It j b so much easier to give up on h and forget abt it and move on if I j didn't see u, or if I had someone who liked me. Idk. Shits so confusing. I feel bad for confusing u along the way bc I'm j trying to make sense if my own emotions and shit and it's really not your problem. Which is another reason I should j block u so it saves us both the trouble. But alsooooo it would mean you know I actually care but you probably know that already. Goddamn. Why is this so confusing. Maybe if you put in the tinniest amt of effort I would have like something to hold onto but that effort could easily be confused w j being friendly. Idk if I j want a guy to care abt me. It's sorta ridiculous. Lmao. I reallyyyy gotta get over it and It's so inconvenient that I cant block u. Hell were each others #1 bsf on snap like. You'd def notice. The thing is I would block u if I knew u weren't gonna talk to ur friends abt it which u probably won't bc u like don't have emotions so. Anyway this sucks bc Ik u don't like me and I'm straight up leading myself on. It's crap.

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Do I sound crazy? Yes. The answer is yes.