Illusions

CHAPTER FIFTY FOUR

She woke up at night. It was dark. She reached for the bedside lamp and turned it on

Me: hey
Kim: what's the time?
Me: almost 2 in the morning
Kim: Are you going to stay up all through?
Me: if it'll make you feel safer, I would
Kim: hugging me to sleep would make me feel safer but you have to sleep. You need it more than I do
Me: are you sure?

I mean since we broke up, there hadn't been any physical contact between the both of us. She wouldn't even hold my hand. Her asking me to hold her to sleep meant she was extremely scared. I got on her bed and under her duvet. She slept off almost immediately. Her body in my arms, something I had missed badly. I took advantage of the opportunity to touch her everywhere. It was wrong yes but I couldn't help it. Fuck, I missed her, every part of her. We had sex just once and I wanted it again. It didn't last because it was really painful for her so I stopped but now, I didn't care. I just wanted to feel her again. I got up from the bed and took a walk around the house. Felt pretty dark. Nobody was awake. Barry was drunk to stupor. I got on the couch and decided to spend the night there. I couldn't be near her and not get thoughts. I slept off. I woke up and decided to go home before coming back. I took a shower at home and went down for breakfast

Mom: where were you last night?
Me: Kim's
Mom: How is she?
Me: not good. I'm scared she has PTS
Mom: poor child
Me: I just hope she survives this
Mom: you still love her?
Me: is it that obvious?
Mom: pretty much

She said as she served breakfast

Me: I don't know Mom
Mom: you should, considering the fact that you were the one that broke up with her
Me: I was doing what was best at that time
Mom: you can't leave a girl and walk back in her life as you please Nicholas! She has feelings
Me: I know
Mom: have you talked to her about it?
Me: I don't plan on
Mom: so you're just going to let her go?
Me: I think she has someone else now. She's going back to school on Monday. To him
Mom: who's him?
Me: Zayn
Mom: and who's that?
Me: this new dude she's been hanging out with
Mom: are you sure they are together?
Me: I guess I'd find out

Monday came quick. I got to school really late and met her in class. She looked down. I waited for break to talk to her

Kimberly's POV

The bell rang and I went to my locker. I sighed. I was physically in the class but my mind was far away from there. I sighed and slammed my locker.

Zayn: don't you think that's agressive?

I turned and saw him. I was on the verge of breaking down. He walked up to me and hugged me

Me: I'm so tired Zayn
Zayn: it'll get better my Love, I promise
Me: are you sure?

Zayn's POV

Me: sweetheart, I am sure. I mean we are together now, I'd be there every step of the way

I leaned in and kissed her. I didn't know I was eventually going to get her. I mean she didn't say yes yet but I kissed her and she didn't pull away until she did

Me: I'm sorry, I shouldn't have
Kim: yeah, you shouldn't have
Me: Kim wait

She didn't.

Nicholas'POV

Me: where's Kim?
Kat: her locker. She isn't talking to anybody. Maybe she would talk to you

I went out the classroom and saw Zayn kissing her. I stopped, hoping she would pull away and slap him but she didn't. I scoffed. I was hurt as hell. I went back into the classroom

Kat: talk to her?

I didn't answer. She came back to class after break and was the same. School was over and she came to me

Kat: Barry is going home. Can you drive me to the hospital?
Me: I can't. I've got somewhere to be

I said as I stood up and left. I avoided her for weeks. Two weeks later, it was a Friday and she was on the field. I was going to talk to her. I walked up to her and called her

Me: hey
Kim: hi
Me: I'm sorry I've been distant
Kim: it's okay
Me: I'm sorry
Kim: my dad woke up
Me: when?
Kim: on Monday
Me: I'm happy for you
Kim: are you? You stopped coming to see him
Me: yeah I had somethings to take care of. Would you mind having lunch with me? After school
Kim: uhm
Me: please?
Kim: fine

Someone called her

Kim: I have to go
Me: yeah it's fine

She left. Barry walked up to me

Barry: you're getting back with her?
Me: possibly
Barry: why?
Me: why what?

I said looking at him

Barry: leaving her and walking back into her life like you own her
Me: maybe it's because I do
Barry: stay away from her
Me: no way
Barry: do you know how many crying nights she had because of you?!
Me: well she got shot because of you

I shouldn't have said that and I got a punch in face for it. Ryan stepped in to hold him back

Barry: stay the fuck away from her. It's not a warning. She's better off without you ruining her life

He walked out. I was lost. Why? I didn't know that she had cried. I mean she agreed to it like it was nothing. Acted like she was fine on school. I couldn't possibly guess that she wasn't. Maybe Barry was right. Maybe I should really stay away from her

Ryan: what was that about?
Me: he wants me to stay away from Kim
Ryan: why?
Me: why not

I scoffed. He had a very valid point. I grabbed my bottle and headed to my car