My Mine (18+)

17.

MANIK

Shh I'm taking what's mine
(I said before kissing her)

Wow now that was unexpected (she said after catching her breath )

Unexpected?? Why??

Um maybe because some minutes ago we were fighting and i was this close (showing little space between her fingers cutely) to smacking your face off..i swear..

Damn you violent women..chill with the anger

Huh...you were equally angry so don't blame me at all

Yea yea I know....just come here(i said pulling her to my chest)

Manik....I'll hurt you

You won't

I have already ( i gave her a questioning look) yes with my words my actions intentionally or not i have manik
I have been hurting you continuosly
Mentally and even physically
Look at you...you are hurt badly (i tried to interrupt but she shove her finger on my lips) shh let me....this condition of yours....it's because of my father.. he's the reason you're hurt and laying over here ...but then again he's my father...he hurt you to hurt me in which he was successful
I have been hurting you intentionally or unintentionally
Idk i...just
I'm so sorry manik....I'm so sorry for hurting you for not opening up to you
I'm a coward you are right... i dont let people in
I thought that i can solve all this shit on my own
But now when i think about it i realised that i can't manik...i can't face my past alone...i thought I'm strong manik...i really thought that I'll go through it like i did in past but
I was so wrong i can't....i want someone to hold me....i need love manik....i want you...i want you to hold me when im at my lowest
I want you...i need you
I thought maybe letting you go will save you from my past ....but i can't ...I'm so selfish i can't let you go
I need you so much ....i love you...i now realise that i need no-one but you
Please i can't do this anymore without you
I want you to...(she cried more)

I tried to soothe her...

Hey nandini look at me
Baby..hey calm down I'm here right here with you
You hear me  I'm here babe...stop crying (wiping her tears)
I'm here always yea(she nodded still hiccuping)

(I made her drink water and after keeping the glass back i side hugged tightly)

Manik don't your shoulder is hurt(she whispered)

Its fine...I'm hurting somewhere else

Huh..where.. do I need to call the doctor(she said instantly trying to get out of my hold)

No relax...it's my heart that's paining
right now
You know listening to you about how difficult is it for you to trust someone
to open up to them
It made me realise that it's the same for me too right because i wasn't going to tell you about me past like ever because i thought it wasn't necessary
We were so happy....yes we had couple of fights and stuff but it was never about our past
Like never
If this accident or your father stuff wouldn't have happened I'm sure neither you would have told me anything and same with me
Right (she nodded slowly)
I...i thought our past is our past...we don't need to remember that
I had moved on and so do you so what's the need to keep hanging on it
But i was so wrong... this past of ours
Be it bitter,sweet, horrifying or whatever.... at the end of the days it's ours right..we can't cut it out of ourselves....

It stays with us forever....it haunts us...will keep haunting us forever...we try to ignore it but still there are some days when we do think about it maybe unconsciously but we do....you know i...always have this thought that what if..what if I would've done something for my mother when I saw that man abusing her...maybe if i was vocal about this to police than mother would've been with me....and no i dont blame myself....there was time when i did blame myself....i was depressed for years manik...i wasn't able to get off my bed...i wanted to die
(I gripped her waist tightly)...i wanted to visit my mum...what do you even expect from me...i was still a  fucking child who had noone
I cried and cried but then one day my maid who was asked to take care of me, she took me to this orphanage...i never had friends in my childhood
I was nerd..a big one...so seeing so many children around my age playing and laughing there without their parents
It struck me really hard.....i saw little children who didn't even knew or saw their real parents, they were playing..they were happy
I felt lucky really atleast even for sometime i did got to see my mum i did got to make beautiful memories with her most importantly i did experience motherly love
After the visit to orphanage i changed completely
My father used to abuse me mentally Calling me names but it didn't bother me now
Because i became stronger for my mum i wanted justice for her i wanted to punish my father
So i started studying hard i looked for scholarships here and there and finally i was on my feet without my father's money
I was proud of myself because my mother would've been proud of me
from that point of my life till now i haven't given up
I wanted success this much that it'll be possible for me to finally punish that bastard
Im strong manik
I really am
Its just i was startled seeing him after so many years
But now i have collected myself...the rage is still in me and I'm not gonna let the bastard go away so easily
Because this time he not only tried to dig in my past wounds....calling my mother from names... but also he tried to harm you...you have become my life....i can't imagine myself without you.....I'm gonna fucking punish that father of mine for trying to take what's mine...he won't be able to harm any of you from now
I'll make sure of it
I.....I'm so tired(she slightly pouted)

After some minutes of silence i said  lightening the mood

I just realised something

Huh what???

You just said i love you to me and claimed me as yours twice (i said grinning)

I know.....so you don't want that (she said whispering)

No (her face...she was so close to crying) hey stop baby i need it...i love you too and you have been mine since the day we met....you are it for me always....

You monster scared me(i chuckled in response)

Ok so.... enough of this depressing talks...i want you to cheer up okay(tickling her slightly)

Hey stop....(removing me hand) you... you dont wanna know about my past

I want to...but not now....it's enough for today....I'm sure you have cried a lot in the hospital and no doubt in the office too....and with me...you have been weeping since idk....it's not good for you and for me also
I want you to relax we'll look through this tomorrow and this time together
We're gonna fight it and win for sure
Yea

Yes( she beamed)

Mani---

Knock knock

Come

Sir the  soup you asked for

N- Thanku (taking the tray from the maid)

(Then nandini settled the tray on bed table)

Here open your mouth (she fed me and  after few bites i asked her to eat her own)

Manik I'll eat...you can't do that with your left hand... I'll feed you and then eat myself (she said glaring me)

But it'll get cold for giu

It won't...and it's okay i can have it a little cold that too only if you eat it fast comeon open for me( and i did as i was told)

(After finishing mine...she had hers that to few bites)

Finish it

No it's so.... tasteless (she whispered last part)

But you only prepared it no(i teased)

Don't tease me i prepared it for you no and i wanted to company you
You are eating this tasteless food so i thought I'll be with you to eat the same
But its so bad how did you eat that (making face)

That's sweet of you (kissing her forehead) This soup was best i had till now.. after my injury..you can't imagine the stuff i ate in hospital...that was horrifying and
Its ok baby...I'm injured...I'll have these but you have your normal tasty food yea(she nodded ) okay....

(After that she put away the bowls)

I moved towards my bed table and fetched a chocolate from there

Nandini was making the bed and after doing so she came towards me keeping her head on my non injured shoulder switching on the TV

Here have this (i said and her eyes beamed seeing that)

Thankyou (she kissed my cheeks so hard)

Wow (and she giggled in response)

She turned on some show which i was hardly interested because hey you have your beautiful girlfriend beside you...i can't take my eyes off her
She's so beautiful...

I kissed her forehead time to time

You want some(she said offering me chocolate)

Hmm(i said tilting her head towards me from her chin and kissing her)
Its more sweet in here (i said before pecking her again)

Mani---(and she blushed )

(Chuckling i said)
come baby sleep now
You're tired

Night(she said slowly)

Peace✌️