what are we - lee know

three

as soon as i entered the house, i was greeted by my ,,brilliant'' father sprawled across the living room with a bunch of alcohol bottles, some broken, surrounding him

i hurriedly tidied up the place and pricked myself in the process, he s been so different since mom left..i guess we both miss her but this affected him way more than it should have

i immediately went to my room and sat on the bed after throwing my bag on the floor

i prevented the tears from showing and wiped my eyes with the sweatshirt sleeves facing the celling

i turned to the side looking at myself in the mirror

,,shit is this how the others actually see me''

i managed to get up on my knees and continued staring

i tucked a strand of hair behind my ear watching myself

mascara was running down my cheeks, it was because of the amout of humidity and sweat that i handled through the day whol eneded up ruining my makeup

i rubbed my face with my hands ruining the left over mascara leaning on my cheeks

the atmosphere was preternatural, and the only light in the room was the yellowish reflection of the moon

i seemed to enjoy watching myself in the mirror, people call this thing pychomanteum, which is a psychological experiment that creates intense hallucinations but also helps u understand urself better, and i was pretty passionate about getting to know myself better.

who am i..?

sigh

i wiped my face with my bare hands once again and got up

picked my phone from the ground and slowly left the room

i made my way to the bathroom, entering the room in silence preventing making any sort of loud noises

as soon as i entered the bathroom my eyes glued to the pack of cigarettes left of the window stall

he could ve at least throw them away

i took a deep breath looking around

,,im tierd, i wanna relax''

i leaned my back by the wall, slowly getting lower and lower loosing control over my legs, which leaded to me sitting on the ground

once again..sigh

,,its going to be over soon''

i closed my eyes

the room was silent, which comforted my carving at the moment, i needed silence..

but then the sound of a cat meowing coming from outside the window broke the silence

i got up and went next the bathroom window, peeking outside through it

and there he was, out of everyone, minho, petting a stray cat on the head

i lowered my head, confused on why he was right outside my house but continued to watch him in a discreet manner

what the hell..

cold wind blew against my face as i was following minhos actions carefully

the sky was dark blue and soon it would turn pitch black, i blinked a few times trying to get used to the sudden mood change and gain back my confidence as i looked away from the boys weird gaze

he ran his fingers through his hair and suddenly got up from the ground

he looked around and made his way to the car that was parked a few blocks away. getting inside it

although i was very much confused, i thought this was the least important thing on my mind right now, even tho the fact that i never noticed his presence at least once before kinda left me confused

because, what the fuck was he doing here.

i leaned against the wall once again dragging my lazy body down as i hugged my knees and sighned for the 10th or so time

my lips parted when i averted my sight from my window to my mirror

i mentally cursed before managing to get up and opening the slightest water volume, letting it fill the sink

it didn t take much time until i got leaded by my impulsive thoughts and placed my head under the water, letting my left over make up totally drain

i gasped for air and quickly, rubbed my face with a face towel which was sitting on the corner of the sink for the past days

i breathed out cursing myself for making a few truly ,,incredible'' self care choices

i got my teethbrush and brushed my teeth silently before leaving the bathroom carefully

as soon as i got inside my room, i jumped on my bed in the least patiently way

after a little self talk, i appeared to get lost in my thoughts once again, but this time it wasn t about anything serious...i mean, this wasn t serious at all, i just couldn t help but think about the whatever reason which leaded that annoying creature to be right in front of my house.

why would i care, he was just a weirdo

who just stares like that at people without saying anything?

but then the sudden notification that i recieved lightened up the room in a noisy manner

i turned my head to the side, facing the night stall from which i could barely see my phone hanging on the urge of falling onto the floor

my head reached out to the now whatsoever called phone

i leaned my hand carelessly and managed to bring the phone right on top of my face

my face changed expressions as soon as i noticed yejis name popping up on the screen and her most likely happening to be the one texting me

why was she texting me

my brows twisted together in confusion

yeji_hwangg

yeji🥰
Hey, you seemed like the type of person i would like to hang out with!!
yeji🥰
Youre so cool its making me cry
yeji🥰
Youre probably sleeping, GOOD NIGHT!!!

my thoughts were cut shorts when my mind got caught off guard because of yejis sudden unexpected text

i blinked confusingly, clenching my teeth noisily, tons of unexpected emotions filling up my mind, but at the same time i felt like a giant weight fell off my shoulders, i felt relieved because it was kind of the first times someone actually complimented my presence.

was i overreacting?

i scoffed before mumbling a small response that i could send right away to hide my surprised reaction

,,shes messing with me''

so i ended up totally ignoring her message

my face expressed an awkward slight smile before closing my phone and reaching for the charger

my body language gave off unlimited anxious reactions

i found myself changing the sides of my pillow and fixing my positions over a hundred time before actually being able to fall asleep.