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"We can get brunch later"Liyah said on the phone
"Ok text me"I said then hung up
I'm currently on my way to my session and I I'm nervous about this session because we going to be taking about my past
"Hey sweetheart how you been" Kelly said
"I've been good how about you"I asked while sitting down
"I'm good as well"She said
"So the last time you came I gave you homework right"She said and I nodded
"The journal I gave you, you don't have to share anything you wrote with me unless you want to but I do want to hear those 3 affirmations I told you to come up with"She said
"It's ok not to be ok is one of them , I'm beautiful in every way, I am strong"I said
"When you say those affirmations everyday how do you feel"She asked
"When I first started I was like this is stupid but as I continued to say it the more I'm starting to believe it and it makes me feel a little better about myself"I explained
"Do mind if I ask a few questions about Jay"she said. I nodded
" was y'all on good terms when he passed"she asked
"I was 8 when he passed I was young so we really never got into it and we was never on bad terms"I said
"How would you describe yall relationship"She asked
I laughed a little "we were inseparable I was literally attached to his hip he was the best brother I could ever ask for when I talk about Jay it's nothing but good memories"I explained
"Who help you get through that hard time"She asked
"Trey and my pops they was there every step of the way . They always reassure me that it wasn't my fault, Trey always took me places to keep my mind off of it"I said playing with my fingers trying not to cry
"Why did you think it was your fault"She said and I put my head down then Kelly came and sat by me
"It's only me and you its okay to cry sweetheart let it out sometimes crying is what you need "She rubbed my back
I kept my head down "Jay took a bullet that was meant for me and that cost him his life and that shit eat me up everyday till this day my brother died in my arms because of me"I cried
"Your brother did that because he loved you and I know for a fact he doesn't blame you for his death because it wasn't on you like you said you was only 8 you couldn't control that"She said then her phone started ringing
