Behind the Scenes

5

Beck's POV

I'm sulking. I know that she notices it since I haven't properly talked to her ever since last night.

There's really nothing wrong with what she said. I know that. She was just expressing what she truly felt about me.

A family member. A sister.

Of course that's the case. It always has been. Since day 1.

In all our interviews that's what she's always told everyone. So why am I sulking now?

Maybe it's because there's still a part in me that's hoping. Hoping that she'll treat me as something more than that.

"Becky please, let's talk. What's wrong bb?" she asked suddenly.

"I'm sorry, there's just something that's been on my mind lately. It's not your fault, don't worry" I replied.

"Even if it's not my fault, I'll still worry. It hurts me to see you like this"

It's really hurting me too, Freen.

"I'll get over it, okay?" I said and then kissed her on the cheek to provide some assurance.

"You know you can't get away with kissing me right? I'll still worry" she said, smiling a little.

"I know, that's why I love you"

Suddenly, she came in for hug and whispered,"I love you too bb".

And I think to myself almost instantly, a person can really actually feel like home.

The day passed by quickly. Earlier, I already messaged my brother to pick me up after the shoot, without Freen knowing. Since I know that she'll insist on driving me instead.

"You didn't have to call your brother you know" she said.

"I'll call you a driver too. I know you're tired. Don't push yourself too har or you'll get sick"

"Even if I get sick, you'll take care of me right?"

"Of course I will. I'll be the first by your side no matter what. You know that"

She smiled.

"Becky, bb. I don't know what's going on with you lately. And it hurts me to know that you can't open it up to me even though we tell each other everything. I'll respect your decision but please, find someone you can open up to, even if it's not me. Don't keep it bottled up, okay?" she said worried.

"Thank you, please stay patient with me. I'll work this out, I promise" I replied.

How can I not fall in love with her? Is it really wrong of me to do so?

Once we went our own way, I texted the person who I know would understand and help me sort out my feelings.

Nam.