I know that I ended it but
I looked at her with anguish. "I just don't think I'm ready for this serious of a relationship. I need it to be more casual?"
"Are you breaking up with me?!" She screamed back.
"I guess so, but not really-"
"Fine. Goodbye Dee."
Why won't you chase after me?
She won't even look at me. She's gotten over me, I can tell. I was too much and not enough at the same time. I need her to still like me.
I need her.
You know me better than I do
"I mean, he gets in his head sometimes and forgets who he is and what's right, but he's he's alright. I just don't think he's ready to know that. He doesn't remember those moments I don't think."
So why didn't you stop me? Why didn't you stop me?
And paint it over.
"Do you still like her?"
"I think so. I don't think she still likes me though."
"It's your sign to get over her-"
"I'm not gonna do that."
I look for a picture of you, to keep in my pocket
"You have a lot of photos from your relationship. When are you gonna delete those?"
But I can't seem to find one where you look how I remember
"I don't remember what she looks like-"
"You- you don't remember what she looks like?"
Look how I remember
"Vodka is goooood."
"No more dude. You need to throw it all up, right now. I'll stick my fingers back there if I have to."
"I'm dying tonight anyways. Doesn't matter how many times I puke."
"All these drugs are why you don't remember her-"
"It's not that."
"Well no more Dee. I'm cutting you off."
"That isn't gonna stop me."
Look how I remember
(take this as you will, dee does the mitski shuffle <33)
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