Intimate moments by eliesflowers on ao3 feat chaoter 4 created by city citrus

Revelation chaoter 4 by citycitrus

Win
the silence is deafening. what do I say?!what will he say? so many things that I want to say but all that was on my mind is the fact that I better not began to cry infront of him. that concern grew larger as I felt the liquid in my eyes grow more and more until finally the tears won.
Sound
He's crying. Why is he crying? I should be crying. I'm the one who's hurt this asshole has the audacity to cry. I'm angry at him I'm fucking pissed at him but all I can think about doing is wiping his tears and embracing him tightly. I internally fight with myself on acting on this idea before I eventually decide to break the silence "are you ok" I ask. But I can't help but feel guilty about this. Seeing him like this, it's all my fault if I just kept my feelings to myself if I never confessed to him he wouldn't be hurt like this I complicated things. I did this.

Win
I don't Know how to respond I can't say fine I'm not fine he knows I'm not. I wanna tell him everything how I feel about him, how I don't deserve him.. but I can't. I can't do it I've never been able to communicate my true emotions. Why can't I just say what I'm thinking. why is it so hard for me. But if I don't say anything or if I say the wrong thing it'll just grow the wedge between us even farther. "I.." I can't do it. I search for the words but they don't come. all I can do is stare at him staring into his beautiful eyes like an idiot silently pleading with him hoping he would just understand wishing he could look into my mind and read me like a book

Sound
I want to hold him. I want to hug him so tight and tell him it'll be alright and that I love him. I rlly do love him. he just keeps staring at me with those big beautiful eyes like an idiot. I can't stand it anymore the internal battle I've been fighting officially ended when I felt myself reach over and push his body into mine. I felt his warm tears fall onto my neck and shoulders seeing him like this feels like someone's carving out my heart with the sharpest blade known to man. it hurts. it really fucking hurts. "I love you" "I really fucking love you"

Win
"I love you too sound. Like really fucking love you. I've felt the way I do about you for such a long time it began to just feel normal so much so that I couldn't defrenciate the fact that my love is love love like real love like I want to be your boyfriend love. The things we do and the relationship we have is more than just friends and I'm sorry that It took me so long to be able to wrap my head around it all and I should've never ghosted you like that. but it was while you were gone that I realized just how much of me you have I didn't know what to do without having you by my side. The days all became just one very long day. nothing mattered as much as it would if I was with you and my nam kang sai didn't taste as sweet as it would if I had you to share it with. I'm sorry sound for taking so long and putting you through so much can you forgive me "

Sound
"I don't know if I'll be able to forgive you"
I immediately saw a look of worry come onto his face after I spoke. Of course I forgive him. secretly I just want to see him beg. His pride is always at the highest possible level thats one of the things we have in common. So I want to see if he'd beg for me just this once

Win
I could recognize the look on his face even with my eyes closed. That smirk he's doing it on purpose I usually wouldn't give in so easily but at this moment I want to give him what he wants and I'm not even bothered by it. "Sound may you please be so kind and let me be your boyfriend pleasseeee" I say as I try and give him my cutest agyeo"

Sound
He looks so stupid but so cute . how could he look both so stupid and cute at the same time. I can't help but smile. I feel my ears get hot as I look at him trying get the most out of every second

Win
He's smiling. I hadn't notice how much I really missed his smile. It's the greatest smile I've ever seen.

Sound
"I guess you're forgiven and yes I grant you permission to be my boyfriend."
He smiles, god how I love his smile. I love his face but especially his smile and his lips. My eyes begin to search his face until they reach his lips his really pretty lips they look so soft. And kissable. At this point my whole face is red but I don't care All I can think about is him. Winn. My boyfriend.

Win
He's been staring at my lips so intensely does he know that Ive noticed? I want to kiss him. Would he like that? Am I moving too fast? Tons of questions circle my mind what should I say? how should I ask? should I even do it all? Fuck it it's now or never. "sound can I kiss you?" I say trying to sound as confident as I possibly can

Sound
He wants to kiss me. I can't let him steal my first kiss I should be the one stealing his. I use my arm which was already layed across his shoulders to bring myself closer to him so close that I hear his heart beating and and feel his breath tickle my skin. I lean in closer until our lips meet. At that moment it was just us we knew nothing of the chem project, or what others would think, not even about the stupid club rules. All I knew was that I wanted more of him. I wanted all of him