━━━ march twenty-eighth, two-thousand and twenty-three
i write this today know that i am yet to update this book. to which i have disappointed myself immensely. i don't know what stops me from just writing it. anyways, i figured that i would take this opportunity (my bad writing habits) to plan better than what i have. this honestly proved itself important. i hate plot holes and i also hate rushed endings (chain of thorns i know you weren't rushed because it took like 2 years for you to be released however, i'm looking at you.
so, i guess what i'm trying to get at here is that i need to do a lot more planning before i move further on with this. i've got to make a timeline so that i don't fuck it up. and i've got to plan every part meticulously so that its actually good. honestly, it takes a lot more work then what i expected it to take. do with that what you will.
i have really high standards for everything that i do, hence why i find it hard to actually do anything at all (you may be like: how does this even make sense? but i promise you it does) something in my physically stops myself from writing anything because i'm worried that i won't reach my own expectations. i do try though.
anyways, thats literally all i have to say. don't hold out much hope for me, honestly. the hope i have for myself actually doing this comes in sporadic bursts. i just need a whole lot of time. it's odd, i know.
until next time i force myself to write one of these in hopes that it will make me want to actually continue writing this book.
toodles!
━━━ august sixth, two-thousand and twenty-three
it is august month (happy august month to those that celebrate). anyways, here i am again... my sporadic bursts of energy at midnight have come back (probably because i actually have stuff to do -- i'm a procrastinator, and it is bad but i try my best)
so i did stuff. its not good. but i feel about everything so what difference would it make. i can't wait around for something that probably won't ever come. i must move on.
thats all.
toodles.
━━━ august eighth, two-thousand and twenty-three
i'm not to sure what's happening. i honestly just live laugh love (on tour - crying).
things work themselves out eventually i always tell myself that when i'm procrastinating, its worked... for the most part.
my head might explode.
anyways,
toodles toodles toodles girlies!
━━━ august twelfth, two-thousand and twenty-three
i can see you is such a good song. i'm listening to it on repeat forever.
anyways, i find myself here once again... so yeah. and thats all
i dont know what's happening (actually i do - toooooo much is happening that what is going on) ((that doesn't even make sense, i'm aware)) (((I want to sleep)))
lol
toodles,
Me!(eehheheee)
(i'm wearing my crocs in sports mode right now)
YOU ARE READING
epiphany, matthew fairchild¹
Fanfictionepiphany (n.) a moment when you suddenly feel that you understand, or suddenly become conscious of, something that is very important to you but some things you just can't speak about
