Sometimes it's really hard to make efforts. U try so much hard to hold on, ur so tired, a part of you know it's time to get free . But i don't know should i really free and leave. After i leave will i regret, will i miss him, will i want him again.
But present i am really tried, it's even hard to see him atleast once. it's hard and tiring waiting to see him, talk to him, it's hard and i miss him so much.
When it's really difficult for me to even a small conversation with him , for some it's really so easy
It's tough, it's painful to hold on. Thinking about him every single second in a day, every free time i get, eagerly waiting if its snap or insta or whatsapp msg, evry time opening a notification seeing if it's him and getting dissaponted it's not him, while walking outside searching even for a one second seeing him, searching for him in other snap stories, asking him continuously for going out, waiting for his reply for the text i send to him, still so many things...ALL THIS THINGS MAKING ME TIRED
I AM REALLY TIRED i want to tell him .
Eventhough this much tired.
After every single effort, while thinking about him every second about our memories, eventhough they are few they give me a stupid smile on my face.
Seeing his pic in his or other insta or snap stories at that second i will forget about all this waiting. While searching for him and when i saw him at that second i really can't turn my eyes away from him. After so many attempts of Asking him out and when he said yes i really don't even think how many times i asked him but get ready and be excited like crazy to go out with him. After a long wait for his reply to my text when i see his msg i smile like a doggy whenbit see's it's owner after a long time.
All this happiness, all this little things, AT THAT MOMENT I DON'T THINK ABOUT ALL THOSE WAITING, TIRED THING, HARD THING , I WILL JUST LEAVE IN THE MOMENT.
