Love drove me crazy // James Hetfield

30. i fell in love

Next day
James's Pov

I had been watching TV in my hotel room as I then got a phone call. I picked up my phone and answered it.

"Hello?"

"It's Kirk and- hey, James...I need to ask you something and I need you to be honest with me because I'm really upset to find out a way I didn't want to and, I love you... have you been having sex with my daughter Y/n?"

I felt a lump get caught in my throat of fear as I sat upright and paused. I didn't know what to say. I knew if I was silent for too long he would then think I did. Even though I did, I didn't want him to think that.

"James..." I heard Kirk finally say.

"Kirk- I know you're-"

"James!! You're my best friend! At least you could've told me you had some romantic feelings for my daughter! How long has this been going on for?! And I know you're visiting her because Sam told me!"

There was no way out. I was in a corner and I knew it.

"Kirk...I've been in a romantic relationship with her since Christmas. And I've felt feelings for her way before then. I guess she has too and...we started having sex not long after Christmas."

He didn't say anything which got me scared.

"James...did you-...did you put her into the song for the sex tape?"

I paused and shrugged as I rubbed the bridge of my nose.

"I deleted it since I knew it wasn't going to work out for the song and-"

"Oh my god..."

I was about to say something else and then he hung up. I felt so bad as I tossed my phone into my bed and sat down as I hid my face in my hands. This was bad, really bad.

Y/n's pov

I hadn't gone back home. I was with Amari and all the times my mom had called, I didn't respond. I just texted her and let her know I was okay but I was at a friend's. Amari had felt bad for me but mad at me and James for having my mom and dad find out. It was a difficult situation.

"Y/n, are you hungry?" Amari asked me and showed me some eggs and bacon.

I shook my head, "Not right now-"

Knock! Knock! Knock!

I perked my head up and saw Amari go to her door open it to then look at me.

"It's James."

I quickly got up and walked to the door as he looked at me with an upset face.

"Oh, James..." I say and hugged him.

He slowly hugged me back and it was hesitant which confused me and made me overthink. I pulled away and looked at him.

"Y/n...I need to talk to you."

I nodded and stepped outside with him as he held my hips.

"Baby...so much is going on right now between you and I and I know that I haven't been here long enough but I didn't think that all of this would happen...I'm leaving today."

I felt myself choke on a lump in my throat as I shook my head, "Then- then I'll come with you?"

He shook his head, "No. you can't. Stay here."

I felt like crying as I saw his eyes begin to tear up.

"No...Jaymz...I can't stay here, not with my psycho mom. I want to be where I belong and I want to be with my dad-"

"Your dad knows that it was you in the tape and in the song for sure and he knows about us being together as in you're my girlfriend- you need to stay here for a while."

I furrowed my brows. I knew what he was talking about but I didn't care...I couldn't stay so with my mom.

"I also think that...we have to have a break for a while. I'm-"

"What...? Is this your way of trying to prepare me for breaking up with me?" I ask with tears running down my face.

He sighed and shook his head, "No, just a break. So I can get things situated and get ready for you to come back home. We just can't see each other for the time being or talk to each other."

"How long?"

He shrugs, "As long as it takes."

I shake my head and grabbed the door handle, "Sweetheart..." James said to me.

I looked at him and sighed as he tried holding my face but I gently pulled away from him and went inside before shutting the door and letting my feelings go.

James's Pov

As she shut the door on my face, I heard slight crying and weeping as I felt so helpless and overwhelmed with everything. I felt so bad. I cried as I left and got into my car before leaving to the airport. I couldn't stay and let things worsen but I couldn't bring her either and I knew why she wanted to leave. I knew why and it made me feel worse knowing that I couldn't do anything. She was my love and I couldn't have her go through the worst possible thing that Kirk would crack down on her and I. I just can't see her break anymore. But how I made her feel just minutes ago shattered my heart completely.

•••

I landed back at San Francisco as I took my things back to my car and began to drive home. I knew that I would need to say something soon but I just couldn't bring myself to do anything. But when I got home, I took my things out and went inside, immediately getting hit with her scent and warmth. I shut the door and stormed upstairs as I tossed my luggage on the floor and flipped in bed while I smelt her scent again. I began to cry while I thought of her. I had to fix this soon. Kirk would not speak to me, so I need to speak to him...I know I hurt him, Sam too, but I hurt Kirk. I needed it fix that.