Love drove me crazy // James Hetfield

31. helplessly devoted to you

Y/n's pov
Next day

I was laying in bed at my mom's house as I hadn't stopped crying or feeling anything but happy since James asked for a break. I knew it was just a break but I normally overthink and I didn't know if he wanted to let me off easy.

"Sweetheart, I'm going to the store, you want anything?" I heard mom ask from the other side of the door.

I shake my head, "I'm okay, mom..."

"Okay. If you need anything, text or call. Bye."

She then walked away as I heard the front door slam shut while I began to sob more. I missed James so much, I missed everything about him. I just wanted him back.

Ring! Ring! Ring!

I grabbed my phone and checked to see it was Dad. I purposefully turned off my phone and let it go to voicemail. I didn't want another lecture about me and James. I curled up into a smaller ball as I cried more. Maybe he left and wanted a break because he just couldn't tell me over the phone. Maybe he's tired of seeing someone my age and wants someone his own age. I tried not to think about those kind of things but it was so hard.

James's Pov

I was sitting in my studio, holding my head in my hands as I thought of Y/n. I missed her and love her, so doing this was the hardest thing ever. I stood up and was so mad. I can't keep her there and keep myself here to try and push aside what's been happening. She doesn't wanna be there, she wants to be back home in San Francisco. I'm gonna bring her back.

Y/n's pov

After finally getting up to eat something small, I returned back to my room to hear a ringing sound. I furrowed my brows and glanced to see that name. Jaymz❤️. I sighed and picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Darling, I have an-"

"Before you continue on, is it bad?" I asked.

"No. No, my love. Listen, I have an aching feeling in me that has been bothering me and being on break with you doesn't sit right with me. I adore you with all my heart and soul...I just can't be on break with you and I'm bringing you back home."

I felt my heart skip a beat, "What!?"

"Yeah! I'm in the middle of buying your ticket back home, it'll be in your account and you'll be able to come back."

I smiled and jumped in the air, "Oh, James! Thank you so much!...but why are you doing this?"

"Like I said, I adore you with my heart and soul. I need to see you and have you home with me. Plus, you want to be back here in San Francisco and we need to confront the issues occurring."

I nod, knowing I would have to face it one time or another.

"When is my flight?"

"Tonight."

Later tonight...

I had gotten to the air port without my mom knowing but left her a note as I made my way to my plane and boarded. I was excited to see James again even though it hasn't been long. But, I miss him every second I'm not with him.. he means the world to me.

•••

I landed the plane and texted James as I walked out and felt excited but nervous.

'I'm here! Just got off the plane' I texted him.

Jaymz❤️: okay sweetheart. I'm out front waiting in my car.

I rushed outside and found his car parked as he got out and came to me.

"Oh, baby," he said.

"James.."

We then hugged tightly and for a long time as we took in each other's scent and felt each other.

"Cmon, let's get you in the car baby, okay?" He said to me as I nod.

We finally got in his car as it felt warm and nice.

He nods and turned the car on, "cmon, it's late, let's go home."

•••

We got back to James's house and went to his bedroom upstairs as I stripped myself and got into his bed with him as he was only in briefs. We cuddled for the first time in a little while. I hugged him deeply and sighed in relief as he rubbed my back.

"If you wanna tell Kirk about us together, we can."

I looked at James and furrowed my brows.

"What?"

"We need to tell Kirk together about everything. Yes, he knows about us but not everything."

I shake my head, "James, Cmon...I'm scared."

He nods, "Me too, sweetheart, me too. But we have to sometime...okay?"

I slowly nod and kiss him as we laid together in peace.

The next day...

I woke up to James making circles on my hip while kissing my face.

"Good morning, beautiful," he said to me and smiled.

I smiled back, "Hey, handsome. Good morning."

He smiled more and kissed me while getting on top of me. I wrapped my arms around him and brought him into a deeper kiss as he held me tight.

"Okay...before you woke up, I called Kirk and told him we would be at his house by 3 o'clock."

I parted from him and looked at him, "What time is it??"

He shrugged, "10:50 or something."

I sighed and kissed him again, "Okay, let me just get dress then. Okay?"

He nods and smiles at me as I got up and walked to his closet. I know I had my own clothes but for now I would wear his because I liked his clothes better. I took one of his shirts and then put it on. I looked back at James with his white, ripped in the hem a little, car T-shirt. James smiled and looked me up and down. I then went to my bags and opened one to take out some baggy jeans as I then put them on and tied my hair back into a low ponytail. I made my way into the bathroom and then began to clean myself up before doing a little makeup and walking out. I looked at James as he looked at me, still in his boxers.

"Cmon, you need to get ready too. You know this."

He sighed and stood while looking down at me, "you don't tell me what to do, okay?"

I blushed and crossed my arms, "And what if I do?"

He smirked, "shut up, doll face."

He then kissed me before going to get ready. I knew dad and mom and the rest of the band wouldn't approve of us but I mean...I was in love with James Alan Hetfield, he was my man. My man. I was his girl. His girl. If anyone didn't like to, they didn't have to but me and James had something so much more important and better than what I had with Roman and Thomas.