Forgiveness and healing
Is a tough road to get through
The bumps never smoothen out
And the pathway never clears
I've tried my hardest
To keep that night buried
Watering a new mindset
For the sake of moving on
But every now and then
The flashbacks flood in
Breaking through the fences
Destroying every new seed planted
I can't keep rebuilding
Knowing that another flood
Can come crashing any second
But there's nothing else I can do
Everyone's moved on
So why can't I?
I swear I forgave him
And yet the past still haunts me
Maybe I need to dig a deeper hole
For that night a part of me died
I must keep that night buried well
So that it may remain dead
But every time I close my eyes
It comes back to life in my dreams
Reliving it through nightmares
And waking up in tears
It's so awfully difficult
When you love someone
With your entire heart
To the point where it pains you
While at the same time
The memories that crash
Hurt you so much more
How does one balance the scales?
I hope this feeling is temporary
So that the trees of guilt
Hovering over me
Will one day be chopped down
And I can live my life in peace
With fully restored trust in him
Not just mentally, but full-heartedly
So I can grow with him and not against him
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Flowering
PoetryA poetry chapbook written by Rachelle Andrea. Seven new poems, each representing a different stage of life. Sprinkled in plant imagery, this book starts off with a poem consisting of a reminiscent ramble about childhood and ends with a poem about pr...
