Zayn:
Harry walked away from me for the second time in two days.
That’s called a hint. Take it.
I’d been on my way to my lunch break when I’d heard piano music—haunting and melodic—coming from one of the Styles’s ten different living areas.
At first, I thought it was an audio recording of a professional player. I could hardly believe what I was seeing when I peeked around the corner and there was Harry, sitting at the baby grand. I had to blink twice; he looked so different.
His usually impassive-yet-perfect face was softened by the music, and his elegant, long-fingered hands flowed like water over the keys.
I should’ve slunk away but I’d have been fascinated by anyone who could play an instrument as Harry did that piano.
It took a kind of genius, I thought, to be able to speak the language of music so fluently.
And I hadn’t wanted to stop looking at him.
Not that anyone could blame me. I’d teased him about being a demigod, but holy hell, Harry Styles was simply a stunningly handsome man. The kind you found in magazine ads for expensive cars or clothes or cologne.Worse, he was smart, funny when he wanted to be, talented. But with a vein of ice running through him. Just when I thought we’d taken a step closer, he snapped back, cruel as ever. Why did I bother? I was like the little kid who kept putting his hand on the stove, thinking this time it wouldn’t get burned.
Not burned. Frostbitten.
The next day, I wasn’t on duty until three p.m. I decided to get out of the house and into the city. I needed some new clothes, maybe pick up a book.....
Maybe stop thinking about Harry every minute of my life.
After years of talking about my drug abuse in recovery meetings, nothing felt truly honest until I said it out loud to someone else. I showered, put on my other uniform—jeans, T-shirt, leather jacket—but before heading out, I called Perrie.
In San Francisco, I’d been a sponsor to a vivacious dancer and recovering addict. I was only supposed to be her sponsor, but Perrie Edwards was impossible not to love and our relationship instantly morphed into a deep friendship.
“Zaynie!” she said, picking up on the first ring. “I am so happy to hear your voice. Or I will be once you say something.”
I laughed. “Hey, Per. How are you?”
“I’m fabulous,” she said. “What are you doing?”
“I’m pacing my room in a huge manor house, having an existential crisis. You know, the usual.”
“Yikes, sounds serious.”
“First tell me about you.”
We chatted for a few minutes about her latest dance gig and how she was still clean, going on two years now.
“I’m so proud of you,” I said.
“Yeah, well, you’re a huge part of why I’m doing well,” Perrie said. “Sometimes, if I’m having a really bad day, I just think of you waiting for me at the bus depot that day I
arrived in San Francisco and I instantly feel better.”“Thank you, Perrie,” I said, blinking hard. “I needed that.”
“What’s wrong?” she asked, her voice downshifting to concern. “What’s this about a crisis? Are you okay? Boy trouble?”
“No, not really. Sort of. Yes.”
“Spill it.”
I leaned against the window and stared down at the grounds that were green and white under a brilliant sun.
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You Can Let It Go [ZARRY]
FanfictionZayn Malik was kicked out of his home as a teen and his life has been an uphill battle ever since. From addiction and living on the streets, to recovery and putting himself through nursing school, he's spent the last ten years rebuilding his shatter...