Crushed

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note : experimental character si fienne so hehe

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"Noooo . . ." inagaw sa akin ni Riri 'yung beer. Sabi niya kasi lasing na ako eh no pa naman. I'm not drunk and she's being stubborn because she's disregarding my opinion. E, may isang paper bag pa naman na may alfonso at coke, bakit ang damot niya sa'kin? I failed to keep a track of my tolerance but I am not drunk. Nasa mini mart kami kasi Patri said she wants more pa daw so I force myself to got with them or else I'll suck up the ugly feeling I've been trying to shove away.

Fuck kasi.

Sino ba kasing nag-assume na he likes me back?

Ako. I'm so stupid to conclude that he can like me back, but I won't cry. Hindi ako pathetic. Hindi ko rin siya i-co-confront kasi wala namang akong cemented ground in the first place. Wala naman akong hawak sa kaniya.

"More. Mooore." I whine.

Patri chuckles, "Shet, lasing na siya." sinimangutan ko siya kasi no, hindi nga! ipusta ko pa sa lahat ng baggy clothes niya.

Riri presses the bridge of her nose, "Wait lang. Nagpapahabol si Ate ng papabili. Dyan ka. Bantayan mo 'yan."

Iniwan niya kami sa labas ng mini mart.

Gusto ko na humiga because my body felt like it is getting heavy. I don't want to put my head at the table despite the drowsiness trying to knock me off. My head is throbbing so bad that I had to close my eyes because there's a sudden urge to throw up. Iiyak ako. Umiyak ako. Kaya parang na-pa-praning na si Patri dahil hindi ako mapatahan. Gusto ko na umuwi. My feet keep on wiggling because my four-inches heels are beginning to torture me. Nag-add up pa sa frustration ko na ang dami niyang locks so I can't unstrap it.

BAKIT BA KASI ITO PA SINUOT KO?!

"Huy teka lang," Patri panics, "Pota. Oo, uuwi ka na." she tried to unclasp my sandals too but unfortunately, she can't.

Tapos, as I'm in the middle of throwing a tantrum which unbelievably I can't control, may kinausap si Patri. Pogi siya. Though, nakakatakot siya and very intimidating. Pero huhu natatakot na ako sa may itsura tapos hindi ko sure ang pakay. Kaso, hindi na siya super scary kasi kasi naka-we bare bears siya na sweatshirt. But I suddenly want to use Patri as my cover up the moment he look at me.

"Sorry ah. Uuwi na daw kasi siya kaso walang iba ma-contact." Naka-cap pa 'yung kinakausap ni Patri, "Same lang naman sila ng apartment ng kambal mo 'no?"

Familiar ang face niya.

"Oo. Si Yarie nagsabi sa akin."

OMG pati boses niya.

"Keri ba?"

"Oo. Ako na," he suddenly inched our gap, I felt myself holding my breath for a moment. And he slowly crouch so our eyes came in contact. Inalis niya ang strap ng sandals ko and it feels comfortable. Parang nawala 'yung hilo ko habang pinapanood ko siya.

I don't know what happened next because my eyes are fluttering close and I'm putting the fragments of what's happening in every little peek I make together. Naka-piggyback ako sa kaniya papunta sa kotse. Lumapit si Riri sa akin na I don't know kung kailan siya natapos bumili ulit sa mini mart tapos pinatong niya sa akin ang scarf niya.

"Ingat." Yung nagbubuhat sa akin 'yung kausap ni Riri. "Te-text ko na lang si Yarie, Rad. Sorry talaga."

"Okay lang."

Rad?

Isinubsob ko ang pisngi ko sa kaniya.

Pwede ko siyang gawing unan. Para siyang si Grizzly bear like 'yung suot niyang sweatshirt.