•Hell blühen•Tom kaulitz

Awkward..

Hi guys sorry I haven't posted a chapter in a while but school is ending soon so I will definitely be posting more often!

I was frozen, as Tom pulled away from our kiss  we both had wide eyes looking around nervously at the ground and behind us not wanting to look at each other of what just happened and wanting to make sure no one saw us like we were some couple making out in front of one of are doors for a goodbye

I tried to open my mouth trying to say something to him but stopped myself not knowing how to make this any better then it was or more awkward

"I'm sorry y/n i just did it out of no where" Tom said, he was rubbing the back of his neck still looking down giving me a few up glances with his apologize

I nodded my head also staring at the ground looking at are shoes and then back over to the door I wasn't ready to look at him yet "maybe we should just head in" I said digging in my pocket

I pulled out my key card pressing it against the lock pad grabbing the handle opening up the door Tom followed behind me slowly with no words

I walked over to my bed sitting on it still looking at the floor Tom shut the door behind him trying to say something but I interrupted him before he could get a word out

"I'm gonna hop in the shower real quick" I said getting up to grab clothes out of my bag and walking back over to the bathroom in a fast pace I closed the door behind me locking it

my forehead was against the cold door before I turned around facing the shower sliding down the door sitting against it
how was I even gonna talk to Tom anymore without making it awkward I mean like he kissed me and it's not like I enjoyed it right?

but why'd he even kiss me was he really that jealous or something I was trying getting all these things in my head trying to think but I realized I just needed to forget it for now

I stood up placing my clean clothes I had in my hands on bathroom counter I walked over to the shower opening the glass door to turn on the shower I closed it again waiting for it to get to the temperature I like

I removed my bikini and then hanging it up on a towel rack to dry a little bit even though I was in the sun for the most part for the whole day I didn't get much of a tan for being in the shade though but it didn't really matter at least I wasn't burned up

I walked over to the shower again opening the door before closing it behind me I stood under the water that made me starting to think again of everything

What was I gonna do about Tom? "I mean like why did he even kiss me." I said in a whisper furrowing my eyebrows with my mouth partly open and again it hit me why was I thinking of this?

I did a low groan before sliding down the wall sitting on the shower floor I sat there for about 7 minutes Trying to relax myself before getting up to actually wash myself,

I started to wash my hair with shampoo and conditioner that I brought since that we would be traveling a lot in different places i finished up washing my hair and my body  and did some other thing's before I was done

I turned the knob of the shower making the water stop I opened the glass door grabbing a towel that was new on on the towel rack from someone coming in to clean are room and leave more towels

Before stepping out I squeezed the water out of my hair I stepped out the shower drying myself off and my hair I wasn't really ready to be face to face with Tom but I couldn't sit in the bathroom forever

I hung the used towel next to my bathing suit before putting on my pjs(you can do whatever pajamas you want) I walked over to in front of the mirror going to do some skin care and brush my teeth before bed after 16 minutes after doing everything

I was done I walked in front of the door taking some breaths in making sure I was ready to face Tom pushing my hair back not wanting it to be in front of my face

I opened the door but when I walked out I didn't see Tom on his bed I didn't over think it thinking he needed some time also so I shrugged it off

I just decided that I just needed some sleep and needed to go to bed before Tom got back I walked over to my bed lifting the cover before sliding under there
I laid there for a moment letting my mind go blank before the scene of me and Tom came rolling in my mind

My face turned into a red blush i pulled the covers over my head screaming into the covers but that quickly stopped when I heard the key card being slid against the lock..

Hi guys I know y'all are mad at me for not posting for like a month
but I'm back I had school to finish and I had to bring up two grades and I was struggling a bit but I passed!
I am gonna make sure the next part is longer and a bit more spicer 🌶️!

Word count:975 Ik not a lot of words but the next part will be longer