A Secret Love

Chapter 4: I Missed You

"I don't think I'm the right person to ask that question Sam." Umiiling na sagot ni Mon.

"You said I have a lot to discover and learn. But if I am to help you answer, I will ask you. Do you love your boyfriend? It's one thing to stay because you already invested your feelings and your time with him, but if you don't really love him, or if your relationship doesn't have a strong foundation, then leaving him is the best option. That is only my opinion Sam. I have no idea how you and him met and what you had in the past 4 years." Seryosong sagot ni Mon.

She might not have a lot of experience in having a relationship, but she knows how to give a good advise. Huminga ng malalim si Sam before talking.

"Honestly, he is kind, but that's about it. Nagkataon lang na malungkot ako nung nasa abroad ako and I had no one by my side. I guess I didn't have the heart to tell him off. Or I don't know. Maybe I'm the one that needs to learn." Ito ang totoong nararamdaman ni Sam. Matagal na niya itong pinag-iisipan at mas lalo siyang naging sigurado na hindi na niya gustong ipagpatuloy ang relasyon nila lalo na noong mahuli niya ito na nambababae.

She grew up with 2 other siblings, she is a middle child and often she gets neglected so she does what she wants. Between her and her sisters, it's always going to be her elder sister that is better at everything or her younger sister that's always right. She's had enough of this so she is actually just working to have her own life and avoid any interaction with her family as much as possible. She already has her own business so she does not really need to work, but she still wants to do something new that she can call as her own achievement.

"Well, if you don't love him. Break up with him." Diretsong sagot ni Mon. She feels that Sam is just staying for the sake of her family and with Mon being independent since college, she is more bold in making life decisions. She does not believe in typical family traditions, she respects all of it but she is not someone you can bind with these things.

"Besides, you said he cheated on you. If you were my girl, I will make sure to do everything to keep you happy." Diretsong sagot ni Mon habang masuyong nakatitig kay Sam. Medyo natigilan si Sam sa sinabi ni Mon at bigla siyang tumayo.

"Let's go home." Utos ni Sam. Nagulat si Mon sa biglang pag-aaya ni Sam na umuwi.

"I'm sorry Sam. Hindi ko sinasadya na sabihin iyon." Pagpapaliwanag ni Mon. Tinignan lang siya ni Sam bago tumalikod at naglakad palabas ng restaurant. Agad namang sumunod si Mon pero malungkot siya dahil hindi umiimik si Sam hanggang makauwi sa bahay nila. Pagkapark sa loob ay ibinalik na ni Mon ang susi kay Sam. Tahimik lang na kinuha ni Sam ang susi.

"Sam, are you angry?" Tanong ni Mon. Umiling lang si Sam.

"No. Go home Mon. Thank you for today." Malamig na sagot ni Sam bago tuluyang pumasok sa loob.

Maluha luha si Mon dahil sa nangyari. Umuwi siya ng apartment at hindi na siya lumabas ng buong weekend. Hindi siya makatulog ng maayos at iniisip niya kung isasabay pa ba niya si Sam sa pagpasok sa office. Naalala niya na nalipat na ito ng team at marahil ay iba na ang schedule nito. Hindi siya sigurado kung ano ang bagong schedule ni Sam kaya mas lalo itong nalungkot.

"Nako Mon, masyado ka kasing madaldal. Pinangunahan mo naman si Sam." Inis na kausap ni Mon ang sarili niya.

Kinabukasan ay dumiretso si Mon sa office dahil hindi naman siya sigurado kung sasabay pa ba si Sam o kung pareho pa ba ang schedule nila. Hindi rin siya nakakuha ng lakas ng loob na magchat dito.

[Parking area]

Pababa na ng sasakyan si Mon ng tumunog ang cellphone niya. Isang message na galing kay Sam.

{"Good morning Mon, did you forget about me?"}

Nataranta si Mon, 5:15am na at nasa office na siya, hindi kasi siya sigurado kung gusto pa sumabay ni Sam kaya agad siyang nagreply at nagdrive papunta kina Sam.