FallOut (BOOK 2)

-03-

I think I lost my mind
Everything I knew came falling down
Anything I build comes crashing down
I'm pleading, "God, not now"
Save me from my sins before I leave
Free me from the weight so I can breathe

The more I fool myself
The more I feel it creeping in
I think I lost my mind again

Don't worry, I'll be lost in
Echoes, be laughing
On my own
It's tragic, but it's the only life I know
What should I do?
What should I be?
(I'm at a turning point right now)
I'm so full of rage, too blind to see

The more I fool myself
The more I feel it creeping in
I think I lost my mind again
The more I start to fall
The more I don't see myself at all
I think I lost my mind again

I keep picturing my ending
Beneath a yellow rose
I don't recall this type of feeling
A seed inside my bones
My soul turned its back and left me
I burnt the bridge within
Just another waste of human
Weighing down this skin

And it pulls me further from the point that I belong
And all you wanna do is
Take me, break me, hide me away
Or you can shame me, blame me
Burn me at the stake on a lie
'Cause my mind wilts at the thought
Of being alive
And that I'd like it if I tried

The more I fool myself
The more I feel it creeping in
I think I lost my mind again
The more I start to fall
The more I don't see myself at all
I think I lost my mind again

-Lost In Echoes-Caskets-2021-

-JASON-

I'm strapped down to a chair in what looks to be a med bay room. What the fuck am I doing here?  I need to get the fuck out of here. The door to the far right opens, and Blackwood walks in, but...he's alive. How?

"Good morning, Billy," he greets me serenely.

"Who the hell is Billy?" I demand, pulling at my restraints.

"Ah, I see we're still having trouble with your memories," he sighs sadly. "I can't imagine the hell you've gone through in those mines."

What the hell is he talking about?

He's pretending that you're me, a voice in the back of my head explained.

Who are you? I asked, trying to find a way out as that sick fuck walked over to a medical table with tools on it.

I could ask you the same thing, the voice replied. We look exactly alike. I don't know how I got here...the last thing I remember was being trapped in that asylum after being rescued from the mines.

A few pieces of information fell into place from Joey's research. I felt his shock when he recognized his name. Billy Bates...but I don't know of my connection to him-