I AM NOT SIGN FOR THIS BULLSHIT . OK .!!!

Peace before the storm

       Like i said god might have a better plan and give the hardest war to his best soldier . AND LET ME TELL YOU I DID NOT SIGN FOR THIS . AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But still who am i to denied , i am just his soldier. It all start because of my meeting with the interrogator seem to cause me to meet Mitarashi-san also known as Anko-san frequently one day . How does I meet her frequently ? I have applied some job at dango store near the library which the store owner quickly agreed with me cause she actually quite pity my situation , she also known as grandma Ko pay me some good money for my efficiency works in her store which might due to I frequently helping around in the orphanage kitchen which cause me to already familiarised with the kitchen works in this world. It seem some of them still used an old fashion wood stove which is being used in the store i works . Every 11 am after i finished my early lunch which I help with the caregivers to prepared some lunch in the orphanage and some permission from the caregivers . I start to left for  my jobs, the task that had being assigned for me at the store is to be some cashier in the store which the storekeeper impressed with my math skills ( while in my mind with to said to storeowner that i am in late 20 and i am chemist graduate of course i am good in math girl ) but no she might think i am mad and i might lost my job and the worse part is i might being reported as mad person  and being send to asylum . HAHHA no I start to love my life now so no thanks and continued is to be her assistant chef in the kitchen and chopping some woods for the kitchen. It is actually quite easy works cause i already familiarised this type of works in the orphanage which at early in morning me with some caretaker will chop some woods at the forest for the kitchen use every weeks and to prepared some hot water bath in winter . I finished my works early and hope for the best life in future while I having day dreaming on my ways to the orphanage  and enjoys some free dango that given by the grandma Ko as my shifts ends.

     It is already 8 months I works with grandma Ko which make me 5 years 2 months and i already knew how the store works . It is isolated store with not very much customer cause in Konoha it contained lots of dango stall around every corner of Konoha that located more strategical place however grandma Ko  is still flooded with customer and caused dango to sold very well. I make a few acquaintances such as a blacksmith Grandpa Idai , clothing store owner Miss Mina and  brother Yamada a tea shop owner . I have a great conversation with three of them cause all of them are so passion with their works and have their own characteristics sometime the conversation give me some insight and  knowledge in each of their profession. Brother Yamada teach me certain type of tea and their function which he sometimes bring to the store to drinks it with dango and show me some tea ceremony and ettiques and beauty of tea traditions. Meanwhile Miss Mina is very hyperactive, creative person who loves fashion so much , grandma Ko dislike her a little bit cause her fashion is too liberal and very exposed in place that should be covered  ( yes i know grandma Ko you like conservative clothing duhhhh) she designed lots of clothing from the ninja outfits and some civilian outfits while she also show me her new addition which is lingerie design that caused lots of people nearby her to get blush when she show her design and explained the design to me. Grandpa Landai in other hand is very quite person and very brash to those who want to talk to him , he actually reminded me a very grumpy nice grandpa from the movie UP .I think the reason why he start to have conversation with me when I am chopping some woods in the back of the store , grandpa Idai and grandma Ko is actually in law due to grandma Ko late husband is grandpa Idai big brother . The reason he is talks to me is when he realised I am the one who chopped the woods and sharpen the dull axe , he actually impressed with my skills for sharpening the axe as he did not expect an orphan young girl managed to do a good jobs at sharpen the axe and chops a bulk of woods in short time . He is for sure is actually quite tsundere , he always mad at me and told me that a women should be an elegant and must not work in masculine jobs which cause you will not marry in future . Usually i will glare to him or make the axe "slip " from my hand which it lands near to his head which cause him to be quite and startled . This give him the message that i am not a weak girl , in return for his misbehaviour , he agreed to teaches  me some of his knowledge in smithing which make me slightly interested caused maybe in this world I can created my own jewerly I want .                     Back in the orphanage in my cramped bed which I shared with several kids , I look at the windows and looks at the sky that absent with moon (maybe it is a new moon or tonight is cloudy , i think ) I observed for a while and realised I cannot sleep due to my mind still wanders a few things that lingers in my brain. I know from my point of view that women in this world need to be elegant, skin white as porcelain , innocent , submissive , obedient  and virgin which is her   purpose only is to be married a good man , take care of his needs and be obedient to him and give birth of many children as he want for the family to carry the family name but that life is not applicable for me , i am 21th century women that had being trained to be independent and know to make my own money , i mean based on my observation on man , man will never be satisfied with one single women , even the women is perfect in the society, good reputation and a good believer he will still find another women to satisfy his lust and ego nd still it is a women fault for not manage to satisfy his husband , so why should i rely to man in this world , it looks so ... stupid plus this world of man is worse cause they view their wives a property not a human at all due to Konoha social life still in old tradition view. Still why the God did not created me as a man maybe my life is super easy and if i did not marriage until old age I might not being criticised too harsh . Unfortunately in this world i think it might not have any permeant gender change jutsu which had being done by Naruto . Talk about Naruto...due to my hectic life with some new jobs at the store , my time in the orphanage is quite limited..... The last time i saw him during the dinner which he sit in the corner of the room when suddenly a surprised visits from the hokage is arrived and that night it caused lots of thing had happened .  I think he might came due to some of the report from the ANBU about Naruto poor circumferences inside the orphanage , he quite silently enraged with Naruto unkept, starved and beaten look which caused several caretakers that involved with his negligent to get fired and replaced with a better caretakers. I quite enraged and have some small grudge with this Hokage at first place , why the hell he putted Naruto inside the orphanage at first place , why he personally did not take care of him, Naruto itself felt like maybe his parent abandoned him and he is unworthy kid , plus why he did not think that putting Naruto alone in this orphanage going to make his life better , still i wonder what is his motives to put Naruto in orphanage in first place and plainly did not exposed his families to him , it seem that Hokage seem so suspicious and had some hidden motives  . But he is not my concerned now cause Naruto had been out from this place and before he left he still insisted to talk with me which I just ignored his advanced and just walk away from him however I can see in the corner of my eyes that his shoulder is slumped over with his head looking down , i also can sense some of his sad expression with tear fell into floor , I wish to console him .... but I prefer not... I just don't want to involved with his adventures and make the ANBU and hokage to breathing under my neck. It seem already more than a year and i heard that he entering a ninja academy earlier than his peer however it still hits me and that situation still make me felt so guilty about my acts on him but I prefer my safety and keep my own peaceful life in this world. The words academy seem ignited back my some of my memories as I just remember a weeks before , an academy instructor had come to the orphanage to give some form to the orphanage kids and show some of the benefits for joining the academy such as it is free institute and the place and some money will be provided for a kid that successfully joining the academy and it is an honour to devoted to country. It actually sound very interesting and patriotic propaganda which it can fool lots of the kids inside the orphanage but me a late 20 years old women will not easily manipulated with this , plus I don't want to bound in the same place for the rest of my life. I wish to travel easily and maybe have some freedom to choose which is lack once you become a soldier. I already applied some technical school it is not a cheap school but with money that i collected from my works i may can applied from that school , plus what i know from brother Yamada the alumni of the school also told me that the school also provided a scholarship for those who is performed in the first semester.  It seem like it is going to be easy ride for me . After i sorted all the thought I just did not realised the heaviness settle over my eyes due the constant stress and thinking had worn me down. Closing my eyes, I let out a deep sigh, my limbs releasing their tension in the mattress. The world around me faded away, which i immediately slipped into the embrace of sleep while the soft sounds of a gentle breeze drifting in through the window. 

In the hustle and bustle of my life, it's common for me to become oblivious to the world around them. While I go about my day in Konoha, I don't notice the small details, like some random  stranger watching me from the hidden places , or the way that academy instructor take note my disinterested on the ninja academy and any jutsu that he performed in the orphanage, or the little gestures I make when I think nobody is observing me cause it might just my imagination. It's as if i have developed a sort of filter, blocking out any distractions from the task at hand. This is a blessing in some ways, but it also leaves me some susceptible to missing important information or changes in my environment which make all my life plan is going entirely wrong and different. And I quickly regret and frustration on myself for not detecting this quickly.

One day all changed when she come to my store to bought dango which strange cause i work at this store almost 1 year and i can sure that this store never had her as a customer and the way she being slightly "friendly" was already make me so cautious about her .