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Toby Imagine for Katie

WARNING could be triggering. This involves mentions of self harm and suicidal actions. If you need to talk I'm always here. :) Enjoy beauties.

Katie's POV

Hiding them had been so hard but definitely worth it. It saved me from the conversations of disappointment in another's voice aimed towards me. They were all disappointed in me for feeling the way I did.

Most people didn't see beneath the mask I'd always worn. Some got suspicious but never said anything. Others caught on and asked if I was okay.

"I'm fine." I would always say.

Sure, I had an amazing boyfriend, Toby, but school was hell. Home was hell. He and his family were the only people left that cared.

Sometimes I wonder if it's all an act. Like they know my secrets and they're disgusted by me.

The scars buried in my wrists reminded me of everything I'd been through. Some were, being completely honest, caused by fights Toby and I had. I felt so bad after I had to take the guilt away somehow.

Today I sat with Toby on the couch, my sweater really suspicious given that it was summer in Florida and nearly a hundred and ten degrees outside but no one questioned anything. Sure, weird looks were common, but no one could know.

Toby's hand landed on my left wrist and I panicked thinking the scars had revealed themselves to the one I loved the most.

"Princess?" Toby called.

"Yes, Tobes?"

"Why are you wearing something so hot in weather like this? You'll have a heat stroke darling."

"I'm just chilly." I lied. He bought it and kissed my cheek before turning back to the movie.

I haven't really payed attention to the movie because it's so hot in here. Sure, I could take off my sweater, but then he'd see.

A few hours later Toby and I sat on the couch just cuddling. I yawned and stretched my arms, causing my sleeves to fall down.

As I out my arm down Toby's eyes were fixated on my wrist. He sat up and pulled my sleeves up.

Toby saw the ugly scars and open wounds scattered across my wrist.

"Why baby?" He asked.

"I just, the bullying and abuse all becomes too much."

"How long?" Toby whimpered.

"Ever since I was twelve." I frowned as the tears welled in his eyes.

"I'm so sorry. I can't believe I didn't notice my baby hurting." He sobbed and pulled me into a hug.

"It's not your fault." I mumbled. After a while his sobs subsided.

"If you ever feel like doing this to yourself again just call me. I don't care how late or early it is. I wanna fix you."

"Okay." It felt good that someone knew.

"No matter what happens I will always love you. Nothing will ever change that." He said.

I believed it. I did. He told me this everyday.

Maybe now I can finally get better.

A/N Hey Katie! I hoped you liked it! If anyone ever needs to talk I'm here anytime. You're beautiful and anything bad going on right now you don't deserve. I love you guys and I honestly care about you all so much.