jolie memphis

the end but not goodbye

I think
I think Veronica Mars is an underrated show
and I think
peppermint gum is superior
and I think jazz is really good
and I think dark chocolate is better than milk
and I think Riot Grrl is one of the best musical genres to exist
and I think Hope Sandoval must be a goddess
and I think matcha is one of the best types of tea
and I think Stevie Nicks sings like no other
and I think the colour pink should be used more
and I think Anne Sexton was a perfect poet

and I think...I think
careers don't really matter
and I think real love is built to last
and I think we can wish away the nightmares
and I think joy can be found in the small moments
and I think we really could be friends forever
and I think sisters are more precious than anything
and I think..
I think I'll create a world of my own
and I think I'll remember these days for the rest of my life
and I think you use your face as a shield
and I think you've spent a whole life's full of wanting
and I think it's best for me to never see you again, the way I do
and I think it's best we move in together as soon as we can
and I think you'll enjoy loving him or him
and I think you'll enjoy doing your own thing
and I think I'lll feel awfully lonely without you
and I think i'll love you forever
and I think i'll drown one day
and I think I want to experience it all

and I think I want to die

I can't breathe. I want to. I want to wear bangles on my wrists and my hair down. I want to stand in the rain. I want terror and awe and thunder and love all of the time. I would miss my sister. I love watching bats fly around in the garden, I like the air in forests, music is just so good and I love the moon, I really do, and I love you, and I love you, and I can't exist but I do, let me listen and think, I can hear them tweeting and the grass is swaying and my jaw is stuck and my mouth is dry, and I'll miss writing in my journal, and long nights with you, and I want to stay for sweat and tears and laughter and touch and smiles and light and that film and that person and that god forsaken day that I remember, I don't want to leave, i don't want you to leave,

I think we'll spend a lifetime full of
life and
wanting and
hoping and
crying and
grieving and
laughing and
falling and
freeing ourselves and
forgiving

and just trying to exist in the best possible way and god girls, don't leave me, I'll have to find my own way now and

I think I'll love you for as long as I live
and I think I'll love you more than i should be loving myself
and I think I'll think you're precious forever
and I think I'll sit waiting for you until November
and I think if you didn't love me as much, it would hurt a little less

but what do I know.
I'm only a girl

But by god am I good at it