"It hurts to know that you will never look at me the way I look at you"
He knows that forcing you to stay will make you hate him which you already do.
But he was afraid that he will left alone again where he use to eat alone in a big dinner table with no one there sleeping alone and he often stayed at his office because why going home when there was no one waiting for him to come home that house made him feel so lonely and miserable.
He felt like that house was mocking him telling him see your mistake and you are here alone suffering
After you came it was like... so different the house felt so different.... so good tbh
And again he had to let you go because he can't help but to feel guilty that somehow it's affecting you. You love junkook. And even though he hates junkook but he was his bestfriend. He can't bear the fact that you hate him he has to confirm it
"You hate me?"
He slowly mumbled but was enough for you to hear. Your heart beat raised asking one question
Do I hate him?
If I don't hate him why?
Why?
There were so many dos and ifs and you don't know what is the answer of them
"No"
The first word which cross your mind came out of your mouth and you saw Taehyung sad smile hoping that he will not ask why you don't hate him when he did so my things to you because you also don't know the answer to them.
"I'll let you both meeting each other, stay with each other. But I can't let you go, out of the mansion"
"Why?"
You were utterly confused like why would he say that. In some way he is stil not letting you both go honestly I don't want to go either
In the back of your head you heard a voice you remember what soobin told you when he was about to leave
"He is been through a lot, yn. I don't know if I should say this or not but he refused his dad saying he will not get married until he have you and his dad was angry so he kicked him out of the house, he waited for you like a lost puppy looking for his owner, yn. I saw that I saw him wandering around streets lost. I saw all of that because even if his dad kicked him out he told me to look after him... Because he was broken and he is and the only thing which can fix that piece again is you. You yn. He only wants you and no one else"
Anticonvulsant...
Antipsychotic...
Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor...
Sleeping pills...
This all are the medicine of mental disorder illness, Is he mentally not stable
"He can't sleep with sleeping pills because he use to have nightmares he use to go to therapist but after you came he sleeps peacefully it's been years since I saw him this relaxed. Because of whom? You because of you"
"Think before you take any decision"
He smiled and walked out of the room
"I'll send junkook"
Taehyung walked out of the room while you were there sitting on the bed lost
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"Yn"
He said as soon as I open the door as I looked at him "kookie" I smiled as he moved forward to hug me, embracing me in his arms
"I missed you" you wanted to said you missed you too and you really wanted to but don't know what happened as soon as he hugged you you felt a different sensation through your body. Surely you were feeling safe in his arms his arms were your safest place and happiest place but you miss Taehyung his arms that were wrapped around you when you sad that you were pregnant.
You miss him when you shouldn't. You were guilty making your self understand that you have a husband and it isn't right to think about anyone else when your husband is right here loving you taking you in his arms and making you feel loved
Yet you were confused about your feelings as you got over Taehyung started to love junkook so why that dead feeling for Taehyung that you buried deep inside your heart is wanting to get out
Feeling that you aren't hugging back junkook break the hug awkwardly "come in" you offered as he does the exact
As you were about to close the door you heard a voice calling your names "yn!" peeking your head out of the room you saw Jimin running towards your room. You smiled genuinely no matter what jimin did but he always manage to put a big wide smile on your face and you love it. He was there when you were alone here and made you believe that what he did was because that was his job "here" he forwarded his hand in your direction and you looked down to see what he brought and you saw two phone your and junkook's. You took it from his hand and said "thank you jimin"
He bid a bye and went from there although you wanted him to stay with you talkin to you but you can't as he said he had wori to do and you just can't keep junkook wait inside your room which will be his too and go talk to jimin about what are you feeling nowadays
"If you want to fresh up you can. I will get you new clothes and something to eat for you" you went to your wardrobe and searched for some clothes for him and e nodded and went to the bathroom to fresh up
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"So you are keeping the baby" you nodded your head as junkook asked you after listening to you
"Yes, I am keeping the baby and am thinking about when the baby will be here I will give it to Taehyung, he loves kids so much and always wanted kids. I would be happy if he will be happy that the baby's will be with him and he will not feel lonely anymore"
"You will be okay?" Junkook asked concern and I nod my head up and down "It isn't like I am leaving my baby the baby will be living with Taehyung and I would visit them regularly after all they are my babys too and how can I leave my baby my first child"
He nod understanding and began to eat the food I brought for him
"Junkook?"
I called his name and he looked up at me and raised his brows "yeah?"
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"I am missing mom, dad and Yeonjun oppa can we call them and tell them to come here?" Junkook smiled and nodded his head "Fine but make sure to ask Taehyung about that first as this is his mansion so we gotta take his permission before calling someone over" you smiled before replying "Yes but Taehyung will never say no to me he never did" Junkook's smile dropped but he suddenly put a fake smile on giving it to you and then again stated to eat.
