Chapter 30

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 It's been a week since the thing that happened between me and Aaron's brothers, I don't regret it tho

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It's been a week since the thing that happened between me and Aaron's brothers, I don't regret it tho.

Aaron will be here anytime now so I'll just have to act normal like nothing happened at all, I take a deep breath and let it out, I will do my monthly hair trim , I section my hair and go for it i will go a bit shorter than i usually do, my hair reaches to my thighs it has gotten really long.

I take my scissors and go for butterfly cut , after I was done I do some curtain bangs and that's it,
now my hair only reaches to my waist but that's fine it will grow fast.

I style my hair with blow dryer and it looks perfect , it was still early and I was still in my nightgown so I go back to bed.

Time skip

When I woke up I saw Aaron asleep beside me , he looked really tired , now that I'm looking at him I realize how handsome he is , long lashes , perfect nose, full lips , sharp jawline , soft light brown hair and good body, he is breathtakingly handsome.

Suddenly I feel guilty for what I did, why am I even feeling like this it's not like I love him.

He slowly started to wake up , I quickly get up from bed and go to bathroom, I don't want to face him right now,I hear a knock "Rose."

His voice has no emotion "open the door I know what you did with my brothers" he says , what do I do ? Do I open the door? Nah what if he kills me? "I won't kill you now open the door" I slowly open the door, I look up to see him but he was already looking at me "didn't I tell you not to fuck with my brothers?" his voice send
shivers down my spine.

"Why does it matter? You clearly hate me ,or that you only want to fuck me and keep me to yourself?" I say getting frustrated

His hand found its way to my neck, squeezing it tightly but not tight enough to hurt me "yes , yes I do want to keep you to myself and fuck you 
you know why, because you are mine and I don't fucking share" he says as he grabs my waist with the other hand "my brothers are not what they show, Rose. I'm warning you cause they don't deserve someone like you, even I don't deserve someone like you." His eyes softened

I don't even know what to say , suddenly I regret everything about what happened, I should have never fucked his brothers

What does he mean deserve someone like me ? I'm not even worth anything,and he is saying deserve someone like me?

"I'm....." I started "I'm sorry" i move away from him and make my way out of the room to the guest room, I'm so stupid so damn stupid- what is wrong with me , was I even thinking straight?
I don't want to feel like this, I'm so selfish, I should not deserve anything.

I lock myself in , tears were falling down my face,
I always ruin everything , was I ever good enough?

Time skip

I woke up realizing that I was still on the floor, when did I even fell asleep?

I decided to stay in the room today cause Aaron is probably home and I don't want to be seen by him , it will make me feel even worse.

I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done it but he hates me ,why is it bothering him , he is just using me after all , in the end he will make me feel worthless and leave me like every mafia man left their wives or even kill them or even worse.

As far as I know Aaron he will never do anything like that but I just can't be sure.

I take a quick shower, I feel really cold even though all the A/C are off ,I get under the covers and I immediately start to feel warm.

After few hours of laying in the bed doing nothing I eventually got bored, my body feels like it's on fire I think I have fever

I really want to drink some hot coffee,I slowly open the door and go downstairs to the kitchen,

What the hell ! Who the fuck makes cabinets so high even my five foot-eleven can't reach it , I mean for his six foot- 5 it's definitely good for him.

Just as I was pouring the coffee in the cup a voice startled me , the cup fell out of my hand and shattered into pieces,I hiss at the pain on my hand from the coffee , I turn and see Aaron staring at me he was shirtless "what are you doing?" He asks stepping towards me , I take a step back but a sharp pain stops me in my tracks

"Don't move or you will hurt yourself" he says , pulling me by the waist and picking me up "let me go" I say but it came out as a whisper, he sits me on top of a counter away from the mess "stop fighting" he says as he get annoyed than he gets a aid kit from the top cabinet

He get on his knees and look for any wound on my leg ,when he was done checking he looks at my hand "it's just a little burn nothing bad" he says as he stands up and takes my hand and puts some medicine on it

He pulls out a red box and hand it to me without a word, I star at him for few seconds before opening it , when I open it a beautiful ring shines up at me "it's...it's beautiful" after a moment of silence he speaks "what did you feel?" What did I feel? "What?" I ask in confusion

"What did you feel ? And he honest "I.." I pause
"I feel regret,sad, bad I feel so fucking much regret I don't know how to tell you what was I even thinking at the time" I say looking away from him

"Did you really wanted it? Were you willing to give in?" Did I? "I don't know if I really wanted it , I had a weird feeling about it" I say "and yet you still decided to do this to me when you don't even know if it was good?" He frowns "yes, yes I admit I was an idiot for doing that but I don't know what to do to make it better"

"That's because there is no getting better" I look at him in the eyes as soon as he said that "what do you mean?"

"I mean that you and my brothers will not be meeting each other anymore and things are changing between us I was so sure that you noticed but you are clueless, I showed you many signs but you never seem to catch it , don't you feel it ? Don't you feel anything different between us?" He pulls me close , so close that I can feel his breath on my face

"I do but I don't want to believe anything of it" one of his hand grasps my hair and other on my waist "why not ? Why can't you just accept it ?"

"Because in the end I will be the one getting hurt, you said that you will do your job which is killing my father and your father and than divorce me." I say all in one breath "you will leave me , do you know what happened to your mother? What your father did ? Your father had married her for money and when she asked for divorce, he refused on giving her, he said that he needed heirs for the mafia and forced her to have children at a very young age." He froze , surprised on how I knew so much, the books at His father office..

"That was long time ago and I'm nothing like my father , my father is a traitor, you think I don't know anything? I know my father is a bad man but I'm nothing like him nor are my brothers , they can be very stubborn and jealous but never force anyone on anything, I don't want anything happening to you , I will never hurt you just.. just give me a chance, I will not divorce you for something stupid , I loved you for years"

Years? How is that even possible? he was gone all that time ,could he have been the stalker.....

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Well finally I am able to post again after all these days ❤️

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