Never Meant To Be

Part 5

I looked up from my phone to make sure that everything was actually happening. She chose me? out of everyone she could have chosen she picked me. This made me smile, I could feel my heart beat faster as time progressed. 

Camila: you want to come to the amusement park with me? :)) 

Lauren: of course! who wouldn't want to?!

Camila: tell that to Dinah and Ally :( but sweet! we're going Saturday around 10 AM, you can meet me at my house, and we can take one car there! 

Lauren: Okay! gimme your address later after school

with that the conversation ended. I was now extremely nervous. I'll be going to her house! This will be helpful though; I'll find out more about her and actually spend some time with her that's not being shoved by or shoving her for a ball during practice. Justin seems to notice that my demeanor has changed.

"Someone's feeling better?" I can hear the smirk in his voice "who you texting? Anthony?" I look at him and roll my eyes a bit "why would I be texting Anthony?" I say in a playful defensive voice "no reason" he says a bit differently "look whose being weird now." I try to lighten the mood. "If you aren't texting Anthony then who are you texting?" this comment alone makes me think he's trying to get information for Anthony.

 Anthony and I dated our freshman year, but we were very young and would get into silly arguments way too much. He would get very jealous and very possessive. It was too much for me, I didn't like it. After a few months of us dating I had to break up with him, he was moving too fast, he dropped the "I love you " bomb after the first week, I didn't say it back and it made me feel horrible, but I don't throw that word around lightly and it was getting to be too much. 

"I'm texting my soccer group chat, the girls are funny, and it brought me out of my mood" I didn't totally lie, I mean I did text the chat, but it wasn't them who brought me out of my mood, but he doesn't need to know that. 

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The bell rang, while we are packing up our things Justin asks me if I'll be sitting with them during lunch and I tell him yeah but that I had to go to my locker first. As I'm putting my books away and grabbing my earbuds so that I can listen to music during lunch I see someone walk up to me from the corner of my eye, I look to my right and it's Anthony. I just know for a fact that Justin told him that I'll be at my locker because those two usually go to lunch together. 

"hey you" he says softly with a small smile, "hey" I smile back "want to go to the lunchroom or you want to walk around and find a spot to sit and talk?" knowing that Normani was going to be with her boyfriend I chose to walk around with Anthony, it would be a bit more peaceful than being in a loud lunchroom. 

while we are walking through the hallways of the school we fall into an easy conversation, while I watch Anthoiny talk about some new game he got and how much he likes it I can't help but think that everything would be easy if I were to date Anthony again. We find a few chairs that were stacked near a table by the choir room on the other side of the school. We get the chairs to the table, and we sit in a comfortable silence for a bit before he breaks the silence. 

"So... are you seeing anyone?" I'm shocked that he honestly just straight up just asked me, I thought he would at least ease into it, I wait for the people who are walking by us to leave before I answer him "no I'm not seeing anyone right now, why?" I'm just going to play dumb and see where this goes. "I-I'm just wondering...you know I'm not seeing anyone right now either." "Why not?" "No particular reason, I have my eye on someone though" as he's saying that he's leaning in a bit closer to me. I'm not leaning back but I'm also not leaning in closer "who may that be?"  during this I can hear a group of people laughing and the sounds were getting closer and closer. I would be lying if I wasn't thinking about leaning in, he's an attractive guy, but when I looked over towards the way the sound was coming from, I saw the absolute last person I wanted to be seeing. Camila looks over my way and sees the position I am in with Anthony, and this made me panic inside.