The Girl He Never Loved Back (Montealegre Series #1)

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A WARM touch from Gray's hand reached my heart when I felt his hand on my waist – pulling me closer to him. Minutes had passed after the kiss but I can still feel the tension between us. Kahit sa mga simpleng pagtama ng kamay namin sa isa't isa.

His bandmates are nowhere to be found. It's been a while na rin since noong huli kaming nagkita. I wonder where they are now. Probably practicing.

"No rehearsals anymore?" Tanong ko kay Gray na busy sa paghawi ng buhok ko dahil sa lakas ng hangin.

Umiling siya. "Hindi na." Aniya "Kayang kaya ko na 'to." Sabay ngisi niya.

My eyes automatically rolled dahil sa kayabangan niya. "I'm serious nga!" I whined at him pero sinuklian niya lang ako ng maikling tawa.

"I'm serious din. There's no need for that. Kanina pa rin kaming umaga rito. We've been practicing for days. Have a look, masakit na." He showed me his left hand dahil busy ang kabila niyang kamay sa bewang ko.

His fingers are somehow reddish na tila pagod na. I bet they hurt a lot. I can imagine how murdered his fingers are whenever he plays drums.

"Band-aids?" Suggestion ko.

He shook his head and kissed my forehead. Ngumuso ako – pinipigilan ang ngiti. You're getting used to it, huh?

I like it anyway.

"Baka maistorbo lang ako sa pagtugtog. Besides, nakasanayan na rin." Sambit niya sa akin.

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Oh? I thought it's masakit?" He was literally complaining about it to me a while ago!

Napangisi siya. "Nagpapalambing lang . . ." bulong niya.

Gusto kong sumigaw!

Tanging pagnguso lang ang nagawa ko para hindi sumilay ang ngiting pinipigilan. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pag init ng magkabilang pisngi ko na para bang ito ang nagtulak sa akin na yakapin siya upang ibaon ang mukha sa kaniyang dibdb.

I heard him chuckle and caressed my back.

"Sana araw-araw ganito . . ." rinig kong hiling niya.

Bahagya akong umatras, still feeling the heat from my cheeks.

"Bakit naman hindi?" I tilted my head a bit.

I saw him bite his lower lip na tila nagpipigil ng isang ngiti. Kalaunan ay umiling siya at hinapit muli ako palapit sa kaniya.

"Oh baby, I really am so damn whipped . . ." He chuckled in my ear.

Little did he know, I was also hoping the same thing – spending days with him like this. Napatingin ako sa maliwanag na kalangitan. I am looking forward to spending my future with you.

Even by simply eating outside after classes, studying, shopping, or watching their rehearsals would be fine for me. As long as I see him, I'm fine with it. I let out a heavy sigh as I realized that I have never been this sure before.

Iba ang pakiramdam. Nakakataba ng puso. Ito yung pakiramdam na gustong gusto kong nararanasan. Yung tipong hindi ko kayang bitawan at kalimutan.

There are regrets, of course. Regrets that I denied my true feelings to myself. However, looking back at those times – the times where I have not admitted to myself my feelings for him yet, made me fall in love with him even more. Those petty fights and nonsense conversations with him helped me to get to know him more.

During my worst times, he was there. He has always been there. Just like my feelings.

I've always felt something for him since then . . .