stay with me. ||copia x Trans male/ masc reader||

chapter 4

The alarm blares. It was 3 am.

"Mmh..." Papa groans right in my ear which kinda gave me a fright. "3 am already..? Damn.." I said sleepily. He fell back asleep. "Hey cmon get up sleepy head.." I said yawning.
"Mmm..five more minutes.." he says his voice deep with sleep. "We can't, we have a flight to catch..we can stay here together for a bit though.." I suggest. "Yeah..I dont wanna fall asleep though, we could sit up mabye" he says. We sit up and stare at the still dark sky of the early hours. I look up at him. "You look cute all sleepy like that" I chuckle as he smiled. "Haha..why thankyou." He said before we kissed. "I love you so much. You know that?" I heald his face gently with my hand, our faces close together. "Yes..and I love you too" he smiled before giving another kiss. "Right! Cmon we need to pack" He says smiling as he got up. "Yeah."

We pack after getting the other ghouls up. I put my mask, outfits and other things in the bag. My guitar is in the tour stuff van. We drive to the airport and we wait for our flight drinking Starbucks.
"Hope your kids temp isn't cold this time" I say chuckling.
"Eh sorry about that haha.." he says awkwardly.
"It's fine.." I sigh slightly.
We board the flight, I sit next to papa, I got the window seat.

I blasted music in my ears. It was a sad playlist. I ended up dissociating throughout take off and basically the whole trip. I fell asleep and woke up with my head on papas shoulder. We still had about a hour to go as I was only asleep for 30mins. I stare out the window for a while dissociating again. Somethings wrong idk what though. Not woth anyone, with me. Why do I feel like this? I sigh.

"You alright?" Papa asks.
"Hm? Oh. Yeah. I'm fine." I say.
"Alright.." Papa sighs. I lay back in my chair. So many thoughts fill my brain. They're all negative. I take a few breaths but my binder makes me feel like I can't breathe. Why do I even need to wear the stupid thing. I hate it.
I go on my phone and search for good surgeons to go to for top surgery. im done.

"Hey uh papa, who did your top surgery?" I ask, he tells me and I make an application. I hope I'm eligible..

After a while I lay my head on papas shoulder quietly.

"You sure you ok..? You're really not yourself-" he asks. "Mhm." I reply.

We arrive at the airport then we arrive at the hotel. I throw myself onto the bed.
"I am not moving for the next hour.." I grumble. "Ah so you're tired..that's what's made you act like this." He says laying on top of me making me laugh. For someone afab, he's definitely tall.

He's so lucky he's now fully transitioned. I'm only on hrt, I'm waiting on a top surgery consultation though. I can't wait to see if I'm approved. I'm nervous too.

He stays layed on top of me, I couldn't move because he was literally using me as a big pillow lol.

"I can't move" I laugh. "Good" he says. "Woahhh what's that supposed to mean" I say rasing an eyebrow. He laughs.

He gets off of me and lays next to me. "Damn I thought we were gonna make out there" I say "Yeah, but how about we just sleep for now.." he yawns. "Aw okay" we fall asleep but I wake up in pain.

"Agh..fuck.."