Papa pov:
I enter the shop.
The tour made me so fucking exhausted, mentally drained and depressed. Its a long, and endless cycle.
I grab the stuff I need
Cigarettes, some food, pepsi, Dr pepper, reeces cups for y/n bc he loves them.
Then i pass the booze.
Fuck
Resist the urge.
Resist It.
I can't help myself..
I fail. I grab a bottle of whisky from the shelf and also get other urges.
Not to drink, but previous urges.
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_______________________________I look around the shop for either sharpeners, or razor blades. Then bandages.
I needed a pressure release. I feel like a shaken up coke bottle.
I dread this depressive episode..it could take my life.
It almost happened before..
I mean I'm going to die soon anyways..so what's the fucking point. The clergy will kill me off like everyone else. They think i don't know!? Fucking idiots. I know everything about it.
I pay and the cashier scans the booze, razors and bandages one after the other and gives me a weird look. She dosent say anything and I pay for my stuff.
I leave the store and head to the car. I put my stuff in the boot and we head back home. I was really tense and quiet.
The drive home was silent until it was broken.
"Are you feeling alright..?" Y/n asks. "Yeah. I'm fine."
I say feeling like there was a bomb in my throat.We pull up home.
"I'd like to have some time alone,.if that's okay..?" I ask y/n
"Yeah..of course." He sighs slightly. He's catching onto something.
I take one of the bags inside my room and sit there. Alone with my thoughts. It feels like I'm being consumed whole.I cannot do this.
I don't know if being papa is for me anymore.
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